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  Collateral (The Gravity of Sin: Blood Debt Book 1), p.11

Collateral (The Gravity of Sin: Blood Debt Book 1)
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  "Watch me."

  He turns. Meets my eyes. His are the same electric blue as mine, but colder. Not because he feels less, but because he learned to keep the heat deeper, in a place where it fuels him instead of burning him.

  "You're not Father," he says. "Stop trying to prove it by being his opposite."

  The cut goes in clean. No resistance. Through the muscle and into the bone, the kind of strike that doesn't hurt until you try to move and discover something structural has been severed.

  My bioluminescence flickers. I feel it along my arms, my throat, the involuntary brightening that's the Empri equivalent of a flinch. I can't stop it.

  Dexter sees it. And his own markings pulse in response, a brief sympathetic flare along the backs of his hands. He feels the wound he dealt. That's the cruelty of what we are. He cut me and felt the blade go in from both sides.

  Neither of us apologizes. Torrence men don't. We just stand in the wreckage we make of each other and call it family.

  "I'm not trying to be his opposite," I say, when I trust my voice again. "I'm trying to be better."

  "Better." Dexter tastes the word like he doesn't like the flavor. "Better gets you killed in the spaces between what people deserve and what they get. Father understood that. He wasn't good. He was effective."

  "And he's gone."

  "Yes." Dexter's voice is quiet now. The rage banked. The grief closer to the surface than he'd ever allow anyone else to see. "He is."

  We stand in that for a while. Two brothers in the dark, looking at stars that have no opinion about whether we survive this. The station hums around us, recycled air and gravitational generators and the ten thousand small systems that keep people alive in the void, and all of it runs on the infrastructure our father built and the empire our family holds and the choices I'm making that my brother thinks will ruin us.

  Maybe he's right. Maybe the hand I'm keeping on Talia is the hand I should be using to hold the knife. Maybe wanting her is a liability that will metastasize into something fatal, and Dexter can see the tumor because he's standing outside my body where the X-ray works.

  Or maybe he's wrong. Maybe the man who can hold both, the empire and the woman, the violence and the want, is the man who wins this.

  I don't know yet. And the not knowing is the sharpest thing in this room full of sharp things.

  Dexter pushes off the railing. Checks the chrono on his wrist. Military habit. Always tracking time like it's ammunition he's spending.

  "One more thing." He's at the door, his kit bag over his shoulder, his face back to stone. "The Vex Collective is moving resources to the outer stations. Supply caches. Personnel. Infrastructure that doesn't have a civilian explanation."

  I go still.

  "Something's coming," he says. "Bigger than the Zalt assassination attempt. Bigger than whoever funded it. Someone's playing a long game, and we're not seeing the board."

  The Vex Collective. The name lands in my chest like a slug that doesn't exit. They're old power, pre-syndicate, the kind of organization that makes families like ours look like a recent innovation. If they're mobilizing, the scale of what's coming isn't something I can address with territorial strategy and financial maneuvering.

  I think of Malachar.

  Of the anomaly in the Drift that swallowed him.

  Of research so dangerous he either destroyed it or someone destroyed it for him.

  I think of Talia's father.

  Marcus St. Laurent, running cargo to nowhere for reasons nobody could explain. Shipping coordinates that pointed at empty space. Manifests that didn't match any known supply chain.

  I think of the way those threads might connect, the shape of a pattern I can almost see, like a constellation where the stars are there but the lines between them haven't been drawn yet.

  Dexter holds my gaze for one long second. Then he walks out, and the door closes, and I'm alone with the stars and the terrible suspicion that every threat I'm fighting is a limb of something I haven't seen the body of yet.

  The pieces are all there. Malachar's disappearance. The Zalt escalation. The Vex mobilization. Talia's father and his ghost routes. The anomaly in the Drift.

  I can feel them in my awareness like objects in a dark room, each one solid and distinct, and I know if I could find the light switch the shape they make together would change everything.

  But the room stays dark. And something in the dark is breathing.

  Chapter 8

  Talia

  The medical ward smells like antiseptic stretched too thin, diluted past the point of doing its job, layered over something sour and human that no amount of recycled air can scrub clean. I tell myself I'm here to learn the layout and map the corridors, the guard rotations, the places where Zane's authority thins enough to show the bones of this station underneath. Intelligence gathering.

  The lie tastes flat before I've even finished thinking it.

  I'm here because I sleep in silk sheets while people I arrived with sleep on metal shelves, and the guilt finds me at three in the morning when Zane's breathing has gone slow and even beside me.

  The labor quarters sit three levels below the main concourse, accessed through a service corridor that smells like machine oil. My clearance chip gets me through the first two checkpoints without question. The guards scan my neck, see the access tier Zane's people coded into my file, and wave me through with the bored efficiency of men who process bodies all day and stopped seeing faces years ago.

  Down here, the lighting runs blue-white and institutional. None of the warm amber tones that soften the upper levels where the syndicate conducts its business. Down here the station doesn't bother pretending to be anything but what it is: a machine that runs on people.

  The ward itself is a long room sectioned off by curtains that might have been white once. Twenty beds, maybe more, most of them occupied. The air is thick with the sound of labored breathing, quiet conversations conducted in the careful tones of people who've learned that being overheard can cost you, and somewhere toward the back, a cough that sounds like it's coming from the bottom of a well.

  Kira finds me before I find her. She materializes from behind a curtain partition, her brown hair pulled back tight, her face thinner than the last time I saw her. There's a sharpness to her now that wasn't there before, the kind of look people get when they've been subsisting on station rations and bad sleep and the particular exhaustion of having no control over anything that happens to their body.

  "Well." She looks me over, her gaze cataloguing every detail. The clean clothes. The way my hair is washed and brushed. The fact that my skin has actual color to it instead of the grey undertone everyone down here wears like a uniform. "Look who remembered where she came from."

  The words land exactly where she aimed them.

  "I came to see how things are down here."

  "Things are the same as they've always been, Talia. We work, we eat what they give us, we sleep when they let us. Some of us get sick. None of us get better." She folds her arms across her chest, and I can see the debtor mark on her wrist, dim and static. No pulse to it. No glow. Just the flat brand of someone who belongs to the station's balance sheet. "But you didn't come for the tour."

  She's right. I didn't.

  But I also didn't come with a plan, and the space between wanting to help and knowing how stretches wider every second I stand here breathing air that tastes like other people's illness.

  "I have access," I say. "I thought maybe there's something I can do."

  Kira's expression doesn't soften. If anything, it sharpens further, and I realize she's been waiting for me. Waiting for me to show up with my guilt and my clean clothes and my access chip that works on doors hers doesn't, because she needs something and I'm the only tool available.

  "Come with me."

  She leads me to the back of the ward, past curtains that part to show me things I'll carry behind my eyelids for days. A man with a chemical burn across his forearm, the skin blistered and weeping, wrapped in bandages that should have been changed two days ago. A woman staring at the ceiling with the hollow focus of someone who's gone somewhere inside herself and might not come back. A kid who can't be older than nineteen, sleeping with his knees drawn to his chest like he's trying to take up as little space in the world as possible.

  The coughing gets louder.

  Behind the last curtain, a woman lies on her side with her knees curled up and her arms wrapped around herself as though she's cold, though the ward is stuffy and overheated. Her skin is damp and sallow, and each breath produces a thick, rattling sound that I can feel in my own chest just from listening. Her lips have a bluish tint that has nothing to do with the lighting.

  "This is Renna," Kira says.

  Renna opens her eyes. They're glassy with fever, unfocused, but she sees me. Sees my clothes, my clearance chip, the mark on my neck that pulses faintly with a light hers doesn't have. She knows what I am. What I've become. Zane Torrence's woman.

  His pet. His project.

  "How long has she been like this?" I ask.

  "Eight days. Started as a cough. Now she can't keep food down, and her fever spikes every night." Kira's voice is flat, controlled, but her hand on the curtain frame is white-knuckled. "I've put in three requests for medical transfer. They won't even process them. Debtors in the labor tier get basic triage. Antibiotics when there's stock. There hasn't been stock in two weeks."

  I look at Renna. She's looking back at me with the resigned calm of someone who's done the math on her own survival and doesn't like the answer but has stopped being surprised by it.

  "There are full medical facilities on level six," I say. "I've seen them. They have everything."

  "Those are for syndicate personnel and premium debtors." Kira's mouth twists on the last two words like they're something rotten. "Which means they're for people like you. People someone upstairs has decided are worth keeping alive."

  The silence between us fills with Renna's breathing, each inhale a small war.

  "You're in his bed," Kira says. Not an accusation but worse: A calculation. "You have power, Talia. More than anyone else down here has ever had. Use it."

  "It's not that simple."

  "It is exactly that simple. You ask. He gives. That's how power works when you're close enough to touch it."

  I want to tell her she's wrong. That proximity to power isn't the same as having it. That being in Zane's bed means he lets me stay, not that I get a vote. But Renna coughs again, a sound like wet fabric tearing, and I taste bile at the back of my throat, and the argument dies before I can make it because it sounds too much like an excuse.

  "I'll try," I say.

  Kira nods. Not grateful. Expectant. As if this is a debt I owe and she's simply collecting.

  Maybe she's right about that too.

  The security checkpoint on level four is where my illusion of access disintegrates.

  I've walked through two sets of doors without trouble, my clearance chip singing its little electronic song to every scanner, opening the way forward. The medical transfer protocols should be simple. I've watched the system work for syndicate members: a request filed, a bed allocated, a transport authorized. Clean, efficient, bureaucratic. The station runs on paperwork even when it runs on blood.

  The third checkpoint has two guards. One is bored, leaning against the wall with the studied indifference of someone killing time until shift change. The other is awake, alert, and watching me approach with the particular attention of a man who enjoys the parts of his job that involve saying no.

  "Access for medical transfer request," I say, holding up my wrist for the scan.

  The alert guard scans it. Looks at the readout. Looks at me.

  "Debtor," he says. Not a question.

  "I have level-three clearance."

  "You have companion-tier clearance." He says it the way you'd correct a child who's mispronounced a word. Patient. A little amused. "That lets you move through residential and recreational areas. Doesn't authorize administrative functions."

  "I need to file a medical transfer for someone in the labor ward."

  "Then you need someone with administrative authority to file it."

  "Fine. How do I reach someone with administrative authority?"

  He smiles. The kind of smile that's all teeth and no warmth, the expression of someone who has a very small amount of power and has learned to extract maximum pleasure from wielding it. "You don't. Debtors don't initiate administrative requests. That's policy."

  "I'm not a standard debtor. I'm attached to Zane Torrence's household."

  "I can see that." His eyes drop to my mark, pulsing its soft glow. "Pretty. Doesn't change policy. You want something filed, you get your keeper to file it."

  My keeper. The word sits between us like a slap I can't return.

  "There's a woman dying in the labor ward," I say. "She needs real medical care. I have the access to be standing here, which means someone decided I'm allowed to move through this station. Let me file the request."

  "Can't." He doesn't even pretend to be sorry. "But I tell you what. You want to wait here while I call up to Mr. Torrence's office, I can verify your authorization to submit administrative requests. If he approves it, I'll process it myself. Might take a few hours, though. He's a busy man."

  A few hours. Renna's breathing in my ears. That blue tint around her lips.

  "In the meantime," the other guard says, pushing off the wall with the lazy interest of someone who's found entertainment, "you're a debtor in a restricted administrative corridor without authorization. That's a protocol violation."

  I feel the ground shift under me before anything physical happens. The way a conversation stops being a conversation and becomes something with rules that only one side knows.

  "Standard procedure for unauthorized debtors in restricted areas." The alert guard's voice has gone formal now, almost bored, reciting from memory. "Down on your knees, hands on your thighs, wait for escort or clearance verification. You can comply or I can file a formal violation, which goes on your record and adds six months to your debt term."

  My face goes hot. Then cold. The corridor stretches in both directions, empty except for the three of us and the security cameras that record everything on this station, every moment of every day, so that somewhere in a server bank my humiliation will be stored as data.

  I kneel.

  The floor is cold through the thin fabric of my pants. I put my hands on my thighs the way he said, palms down, fingers spread. The position is designed for exactly what it accomplishes: to make you feel small, manageable, owned.

  The guards go back to their conversation. Something about a shift rotation. A card game. The mundane machinery of their day resuming as though there isn't a woman kneeling on the floor between them. As though I'm furniture. The particular cruelty of being beneath notice.

  I don't know how long I've been there when I hear the footsteps. Measured, unhurried, the click of heels that cost more than a debtor earns in a year. The sound approaches, pauses. I don't look up. I'm staring at the floor, at the scuff marks from hundreds of boots that have walked this corridor, at the fine line where the metal plating meets the wall, at anything that isn't another person's eyes.

  "Gentlemen." Astra Venn's voice is cool, professionally pleasant, and instantly recognizable. "Productive afternoon?"

  "Venn." The alert guard straightens slightly. Not quite respect, but awareness. "Routine debtor processing."

  "I can see that."

  The silence that follows has a texture to it. I keep my eyes on the floor, but I can feel her gaze on me like a physical weight, like the moment before someone decides whether to step over you or pick you up.

  She doesn't intervene. Doesn't tell the guards to let me stand. Doesn't exercise whatever authority her position carries to override their protocol. But she doesn't look away either, and she doesn't continue walking, and the pause stretches long enough that I finally look up.

  Astra Venn's eyes meet mine. Her expression is unreadable, but something moves behind it, something quick and controlled. Not pity. I'd choke on pity. This is more like recognition. The look of a woman who remembers what it cost to stand in the places she stands now, and who sees the exact moment I understand that cost for the first time.

  Then she walks on. Her heels click down the corridor, unhurried, and she rounds the corner and is gone.

  But something passed between us in that silence. Not help. Not alliance.

  A line thrown into dark water that I might be able to find again if I need it.

  Or a warning about what I'm becoming.

  The alert guard's radio crackles. He listens, then looks down at me with the benevolent expression of a man granting a favor he was always going to grant, once he'd enjoyed the wait long enough.

  "Clearance verified. Get up. Go home."

  No transfer authorization. No medical request. Just permission to stop kneeling.

  I get to my feet and my knees ache and my hands are shaking and I walk back through the corridors I came from without looking at either of them.

  I don't knock on Zane's office door. I open it.

  He's behind his desk, scrolling through something on a projection screen that casts blue light across his features, and when I walk in his eyes lift and find me with the immediate, total attention that always makes me feel like I've stepped into a beam. His gaze tracks down my body once, fast, cataloguing, and whatever he reads there makes something shift in his expression.

  "You've been to the labor ward," he says.

  Not a question. This station is his nervous system. Every corridor, every camera, every clearance scan. He probably knew where I was before I arrived.

  "You knew that already."

  "I did." He leans back in his chair. The leather creaks. "And you've been to the level-four checkpoint, where you were detained for protocol violation, held for thirty-seven minutes, and released without your request being processed."

 
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