There was something familiar about that lingerie shop, and I struggled to make the connection. Then it hit me. "I know this shop."

  Mike looked at me, his eyebrows raised. "My old partner from Waikiki, Akoni, and I went there when we were investigating Tommy Pang's murder. Tommy owned the place. I wonder if any of these others were owned by tong guys."

  "Can you run them by your Organized Crime unit tomorrow?"

  "I will." Something was tickling around the edge of my brain. "The pharmacist's wife told me that she thought the old Chinese woman at the clinic was named Norma. And at this lingerie shop, there was another old Chinese woman named Norma." I reached over to the sofa, picked up my laptop, and brought it to the table, where I turned it on. "If I can pull up the report online, maybe I can find her last name, and we'll see if we can connect her to both places."

  Mike scooted his chair around next to me and looked on as I logged on to the department's intranet and searched for the right files. Being so close to Mike unleashed a wave of pure longing, followed by sadness. I had loved him, and I'd been devastated to find out that he'd cheated on me, thinking at the time that it meant he hadn't loved me the way I'd loved him. I'd over-reacted — but if we hadn't broken up over that incident, something else would have happened to tear us apart.

  Mike still wore the same lemon-scented cologne, and I wondered if he'd reapplied it in his truck while waiting for me to pull up. What did he want from me? Why couldn't this meeting have waited until the next morning, and included Ray?

  I multitasked — talking to Mike, searching the files, and at the same time considering Mike's motives. I'm no computer geek; I leave that to Harry Ho. It took me a lot of searching, because I wasn't giving it my full attention, to pull up the reports from Tommy Pang's murder.

  It wasn't an investigation I was happy to recall, since it was the one that had dragged me out of the closet two years before. But I found Norma Ching's name in one of our reports. "You think this might be the same old woman?" Mike asked.

  "Worth checking," I said. A few minutes later, I'd run out of options. There was no listing for Norma in the phone book, or in Yahoo's people search, and she had no criminal record.

  Tommy Pang, who had owned the lingerie shop, was my Uncle Chin's illegitimate son. Would his widow, my Aunt Mei-Mei, have known Norma? I looked at my watch. It was dinnertime, and I knew if I showed up at her house she'd ply me with delicious food. Mike, too, if he was along for the ride.

  "Want to take a trip up to St. Louis Heights with me?" I asked.

  On the way to Aunt Mei-Mei's house, I reminded Mike of my relationship with her and Uncle Chin. "This is the guy whose wake was going on when we were fighting that fire in Wa'ahila State Park?" he asked.

  "Yup. You met her there, or maybe at my parents’ house."

  Mike had come over for dinner a couple of times, and was being gradually absorbed into the Kanapa'aka clan when we'd broken up. Both of us were quiet, probably thinking the same things, when I pulled into Aunt Mei-Mei's driveway.

  She came to the door in a flowered dress, with a white apron over it. From inside, I could smell something delicious cooking. "Kimo! You just in time for dinner," she said. "Jimmy on his way from college with bunch of friends."

  A year and a half before, just before Uncle Chin's death, they had taken in Jimmy Ah Wong, a gay teenager whose father had kicked him out. Since then, he had completed his GED and been admitted to the University of Hawai'i, where he'd started as a freshman a few months before.

  "Do you remember Mike?" I asked Aunt Mei-Mei. "He's a fire inspector, and we're working on a case together — the fire at the center my dad used to own. We wanted to ask you a question."

  It was strange to introduce Mike that way, without mentioning all that had gone between us. But if Aunt Mei-Mei was surprised to see Mike, she didn't mention it. "You ask while you eat." She hugged us both, then led us into the dining room, which had been set for a crowd. "Always room for more. Sit."

  She brought out a platter of tiny dumplings, delicately fried, and sat with us as we ate. "What you want to ask?"

  "You know a woman named Norma Ching?"

  Aunt Mei-Mei's face darkened. "What you want with Norma?"

  "I think she might have been working at an acupuncture clinic in the center."

  Aunt Mei-Mei laughed, exposing a row of tiny white teeth. "Acupuncture," she said, and it was good to see her smile. She hadn't done enough of that since Uncle Chin's death. "No acupuncture if Norma there."

  "That's what we were thinking," I said.

  "Do you know how to get in touch with her?" Mike asked. "These dumplings are amazing, by the way."

  I'd been so busy eating I hadn't stopped to tell Aunt Mei-Mei how good they were, but I did.

  She waved her hand. "Just dumplings. Lots more food in kitchen. Jimmy's friends, they always hungry."

  "Norma Ching," I said.

  "I no want to talk about Norma," Aunt Mei-Mei said. "You eat."

  I was about to protest, but a car pulled up in the driveway, with the sound of loud music and laughter. Aunt Mei-Mei's face broke into a smile again, and she hurried to the door. "You okay to stay?" I asked Mike.

  "If the rest of the food's as good as this, I'll move in."

  Jimmy's friends were all guys from his dorm, mostly straight, as far as I could tell, and as Aunt Mei-Mei had said, they were all hungry. We ate honey chicken, white rice, wonton soup, more dumplings, spare ribs — the woman must have been cooking all day to generate so much food.

  The guys were all curious about being a cop and a fireman, and we carried on rapid-fire discussions, even as Norma Ching kept percolating in the back of my mind. One of the guys said, "Man, you guys must get a lot of babes in your jobs."

  I looked at Mike, and he looked at me, and we both burst out laughing. Jimmy laughed, too, then looked at his friend and said, "Dude, can't you tell? They're both gay. They used to be boyfriends."

  My heart did a flip-flop and I stole a glance at Mike. He was intent on eating.

  The guys didn't seem to care, just kept peppering us with questions. It was almost nine before we finished.

  The boys left first, after lots of compliments to Aunt Mei-Mei, and kisses and hugs from her. "The poor woman's going to spend the next two days cleaning up," Mike whispered to me as we watched them pile into somebody's old Chrysler LeBaron convertible, a rental car reject from the 1980s.

  They turned up the car's meager stereo and backed away, heading downhill to the tune of some Jawaiian reggae. "The future of America," Mike said, as we walked back to the kitchen, where Aunt Mei-Mei had begun loading the dishwasher.

  "Let us help you," I said.

  "No, no, you go," Aunt Mei-Mei said.

  "About Norma Ching," I began, but Aunt Mei-Mei held up a tiny hand with pink lacquered fingernails.

  "I have to ask for address for you," Aunt Mei-Mei said. "Someone tell me."

  We had to be content with that. But there was something else there, and I knew I couldn't let it loose. When we were back in my truck, I picked up my cell phone and dialed my parents’ number.

  My dad answered. "Hey, Tutu Al," I said. "Howzit?"

  "I'm not your tutu, boy." He was grumpy, which probably meant my mom was watching his diet. "You can call me Dad."

  I laughed and said, "I'm driving, Dad, so I'm putting you on speaker. You ever hear of a woman named Norma Ching?"

  There was silence on the other end of the phone, and for a minute I worried he really was angry that I'd called him grandpa. "What do you want with Norma?"

  "Why does everybody ask me that? Aunt Mei-Mei said the same thing."

  "You asked Mei-Mei about Norma? Are you stupid?"

  "Hold on, Dad. I'm missing something here."

  He sighed. "Your Uncle Chin was a good man, but he had many weaknesses. Pretty women were one of them."

  I remembered meeting Norma. "Dad, she's an old woman."

  Mike poked me in the side and I looked across at him.

  "She used to be one of the most beautiful women in Honolulu." There was a wistfulness in my father's voice that made me wonder a little. "She had Chin at the tips of her fingers. He bought her the apartment in Chinatown where she lives."

  I'd always heard rumors that Uncle Chin was a womanizer, but in the past my father had been cagey when I asked him. I knew that Tommy Pang was Chin's manuahi, or illegitimate son, from a woman in Hong Kong, but I never paid much attention to any women he might have had after that.

  "You know where that apartment is? Aunt Mei-Mei said she didn't know the address, though she was going to try to find it for me."

  "Best to let Mei-Mei," my father said. "She and Norma, they go back a long way. They were both finalists for Miss Chinatown, you know, way back when Chin and I were in college."

  "Aunt Mei-Mei?"

  The disbelief must have crackled in my voice, because my father laughed. "We were all young once."

  I thanked him and hung up. "I can see that, you know," Mike said. "I'll bet Aunt Mei-Mei was quite a babe."

  "What do you think she meant when she said that if Norma was around there wasn't any acupuncture going on?"

  He shrugged. "Could be she knows about the gambling. You said her husband was a crook, yeah? You think she knew about his business?"

  I shook my head. "She was always just a housewife. Uncle Chin never let her know anything that could have hurt her." I paused. "I'll tell Ray about your list tomorrow. I can take it down to Honolulu Hale, and run it by Akoni, too, in case Organized Crime knows anything. You got any other ideas?"

  I realized I wanted to know if Mike had any ideas about the two of us — but I didn't say that. Mike shook his head. "Making the connection to those other fires was my big leap. I'll start going over the case files tomorrow. Maybe there's a lead."

  I pulled into my parking space, wondering how the night was going to end. Mike yawned theatrically. "Got to get my beauty sleep," he said. We stood next to each other beside my truck, both of us unsure how to part. Should I hug him? Shake his hand? Or just walk away?

  We both made little movements toward each other, and I gave up and hugged him. It felt good to be close to him again. "It's been good seeing you again, Kimo," he said, as we pulled apart.

  There was a warmth in his voice that thrilled me a little. "Me too. See you around."

  As he walked away I tried to make myself stop thinking about him, about the way his body had felt against mine. I watched him get into his truck, then wave as he drove past. I waved back, unable to shake the feeling that the evening had felt almost like a date.

  I was too antsy after that encounter with Mike to go upstairs and go to sleep, so instead I changed into casual clothes and walked through the evening tourist crowds to the Rod and Reel Club. A tall Chinese transvestite and a haole surfer dude were laughing and talking in front of an ABC Store, and tiny orange-billed mynah birds pecked at crumbs on the sidewalk. Slack key guitar music spilled out of every other shop. I put my hands in the pockets of my board shorts and felt like whistling.

  My neighborhood gay bar, the Rod and Reel Club, was like a second home, and as I hoped, Gunter was there, having just come in from his shift at the Grand Kuhio. There was another guy with him, a haole in his fifties wearing what looked at first glance like a police uniform — but wasn't.

  "Hey, Kimo, I want you to meet my new boss," Gunter said, waving me over. "Stan LoCicero, Kimo Kanapa'aka."

  "The homicide detective," Stan said, reaching out to shake my hand. "Nice to meet you. I admire everything you've done."

  He had an unlit cigar in the corner of his mouth, a ruddy complexion, and the lines and wrinkles that come with a life well lived. But I could see he'd been quite handsome when he was younger. "You don't know everything I've done," I said, and we all laughed.

  I ordered a beer and we talked for a while. I couldn't help checking Stan out; as Gunter had said, he was hot. His body was in good shape for a man his age — but it was something about his attitude that made him attractive. He looked like the kind of guy who'd learned a few tricks, and who'd be happy to show them off.

  "You know, you're not the only gay cop in Honolulu," Stan said to me. "I could tell you stories about a captain in the traffic division, for example."

  "Really?" I didn't know every cop in Honolulu, but I had a feeling that if there was a gay captain somewhere I might have met him.

  "No names, of course," Stan said. "A fella has to be discreet. But if this guy ever pulls you over, it won't be for speeding. And once you start blowing him, he never says stop."

  We all laughed. "He's in traffic?" I asked. "Haole, Hawaiian...what?"

  Stan pretended to run a zipper over his lips. "My lips are sealed. That is, unless there's a dick in the vicinity."

  He looked at his watch. "Speaking of which. I've got a date with a hot little piece of Japanese ass. Much though I'd like to hang out with you gentlemen, Big Stan needs to have his fun."

  He stood up, shook our hands, and said it had been nice to meet me. "I'll see you Friday, Gunter." He laid a bill on the counter. "You guys have a round on me."

  "Thanks, Stan," Gunter said.

  When he'd left, I said, "Big Stan?"

  "I told you, he's hung like a horse."

  "But come on. Do you have a name for your dick?"

  "Dick?"

  "More like Little Richard," I said.

  "You didn't say that the last time I plowed your ass," Gunter said.

  "Speaking of assholes. I saw Mike Riccardi tonight." I told him about running into Mike at the fire on Sunday night, about working with him, and then about our dinner at Aunt Mei-Mei's.

  Gunter had never liked Mike much, because Mike was so closeted, and Mike disapproved of Gunter's flamboyance and sexual adventuring. "You're not getting back together with him, are you?" Gunter asked. "Because if you say you are, I'm going to tie you to your bed until you come to your senses."

  "You mean tie me to my bed and fuck me till I'm senseless?"

  "You are the best-looking guy in the bar at the moment," he said. "Well, second best, after me."

  I could go home by myself, I thought. Be good, be celibate. But I was damned horny, after the date with Dr. Phil, seeing Mike, then flirting with Stan LoCicero. Chances were, if I went home by myself, I'd end up online, looking for sex at MenSayHi, and I knew that was a bad idea.

  Sex with Gunter wasn't the smartest idea in the world either. But at the time, it seemed like the safest path to take. I drained the last of my beer and said, "Well, you're not Big Stan, but you'll do."

  Beauty And Hidden Danger

  I surfed in the early morning, trying to avoid thinking about Mike, Gunter, or the fact that the arson investigation had stalled. We'd interviewed all the tenants except the owner of the acupuncture clinic, for whom the Hong Kong address was a dead end. Everyone we spoke to represented a successful, thriving business without a motive for arson. Even the corporation that had bought the center from my father checked out.

  We knew nothing about the victim, other than that his body type matched that of Jingtao, the boy Tico had picked up in the alley. Jingtao may not even have been his name. We passed Tatiana's sketch out to the cops in the area, and Ray and I canvassed the stores and offices to see if anyone recognized him. No one did.

  Ray and I got roped into a stakeout for another case, and we spent the rest of the day sitting in my truck, hoping that a teenaged gangbanger would show up at his mother's house in Wahiawa. The gangbanger was a suspect in the murder of two drug dealers in Waikiki, one of whom was his girlfriend's brother. "Want to get this case resolved before Thanksgiving," Ray said. "Be awkward having that big family dinner when you're worried your boyfriend might have killed your brother."

  "Think about bringing him home to meet Mama," I said. "Nice to meet you. Did you kill my son?"

  We sat like that, just shooting the shit, and I felt damn lucky that Ray was the guy who'd stumbled into the department when I needed a partner. He was smart, in brains and street knowledge, he was patient, and he had a good heart. Plus he liked Hawaiian music, so we went through CD after CD of Sam Alama and his Islanders, Pua Almeida and his Club Pago Pago Orchestra, and the Brothers Cazimero.

  Most days, you spend more time with your partner than you do with your significant other. You've got to find a guy who's on the same wavelength you are, or else you butt heads all day long. Ray and I argued sometimes, but neither of us held a grudge for long.

  "Any more ideas on tracking the dead kid?" he asked late in the day. "I was thinking maybe homeless shelters. This might not be the first time he ran away."

  "Good idea. There's a gay teen center on Waikiki, too. A lot of those kids live on the street. Maybe one of them has seen him."

  I'd volunteered at the center myself, leading a group of kids once a week through workouts and some self-empowerment stuff. I stopped going after I broke up with Mike, when I started thinking that I didn't have anything good I could say. But maybe it was time to go back.

  Just before the end of our shift, the radio crackled with the news that the gangbanger had been nabbed in Waikiki, and I dropped Ray off on my way home. I was feeling at loose ends, so I walked through the humid evening, tiki torches being lit on the street around me, to the Gay Teen Center.

  Cathy Selkirk, the tiny, half-Japanese lesbian who ran the center, was in her office, and I settled into the big comfy chair across from her desk to pour out some of my troubles. But first I had to apologize.

  "I'm sorry I blew off the group. I was going through some stuff and I didn't feel much like a role model."

  "Any time you want to come back, the door's open."

  "I was thinking about it."

  "How about a week from tonight?" Cathy asked. "That'll give us time to get some posters up, see if we can draw a crowd."

  I agreed, and then I showed her Jingtao's picture. She didn't recognize him, but she promised to get it passed around among the kids.

  I kissed Cathy good-bye, sent my regards to her partner Sandra, and walked down Kalakaua Boulevard for a while, showing the hookers and the street vendors Jingtao's picture and not getting any response.