But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t find it hot as hell when she’d return from “a run” with Dustin’s scent all over her. That it didn’t drive my wolf fucking crazy for a number of reasons. First,

  Dustin is as straight as they come. He has one preference—Jade. Sure, he’d gotten his rocks off with other girls after the whole virginity situation, but he’d never really gotten over Jade. I knew that.

  I thought at one point, he might have curiosities like mine, but all that was flushed down the toilet, along with any interest I might have had when he swiped his V-card with Jade. But I have to admit, the thought of him, of her—the both of them with me—getting all hot and heavy in the clubhouse fueled my fantasies more than I care to admit.

  It was really difficult for me when they first started hooking up. Not because I was jealous, far from it, but because I felt left out.

  I knew it wasn’t normal to feel like that. Like I should have been part of the action. Especially because I wasn’t interested in Jade like Dustin was.

  At least, I didn't think I was. But I was a teenager then. I’m pretty sure I would have fucked a mattress at that point, if it was tight enough.

  But Rev changed everything. He came into my life, as my friend; someone who didn’t know me from Adam. Who didn’t know about my penchant for dick, or my weird fucked up triangle I was stuck in with two people who absolutely loved each other but refused to sort out their differences, who didn’t know I was a fuck up. Then he came into hers, and he didn’t push me away.

  Not like Dustin did. Dustin wanted everything for himself. The alpha role, Jade, the perfect pack. He saw everyone as a threat. Even me.

  But if Jade was with him, for some reason he’d let me stay. As if he knew how much I wanted to be with her, with him, even if I never said anything. I know it’s because he thought I wasn’t a threat to him, not really when it came to Jade, which was all he cared about. I smile, as I remember the three of us curled up on the mattress, keeping warm during those long summer night sleepovers. I could wrap my arms around Jade, like I often did throughout our life together and every now and then his arms would cover me too, with her in between us.

  Jade knocks on the door and pushes it open slightly.

  “You okay?” She chews at her bottom lip, a telltale sign she is nervous. Anxious.

  I wave her in.

  “Yeah. I’m fine. Nothing a cold shower won’t fix.” I wink at her, hoping to ease her tension.

  She stands in front of me, eyes raking over me. She looks like she is contemplating something.

  “I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable.” She shyly bats her eyelashes at me.

  I can feel the weight on my shoulders lessening.

  “Well, it wasn’t bad uncomfortable, just a… shocking uncomfortable.” I smirk at her. She steps forward, close enough to touch me.

  “You thought I didn’t know.” She tilts my chin up and smiles at me. My hands reach out and pull her even closer, her sweet scent surrounding me. My fingers draw little circles on her thigh absentmindedly.

  “You knew?” I can’t help the surprise in my voice.

  “Yeah, Ranger. I knew. I always hoped you’d tell me because I didn’t want to press you. But I was always okay with it.” She gives me a sweet smile.

  “Dustin’s not okay with it.”

  “Dustin is a dick. It’s kind of his thing.” She sets herself down in my lap once more, but thankfully I am settled down.

  No surprise erections here.

  I wrap my arms around her. “Rev will knock him down a few pegs.”

  The light in her eyes makes me feel at ease.

  Better. Accepted.

  Loved.

  It feels good to just… say things. Things I’ve been keeping to myself for a while.

  Jade leans into me, her fingers twisting in my hair.

  Her breathing slowly increases, and I watch her eyes as she fixates on my mouth.

  “Everything okay there, baby?” My voice comes out much deeper than I thought it would.

  Jade seems to be struggling with saying something, I can see the question in her eyes as she licks her lips, the sight sending a shockwave directly to my groin.

  “I want to kiss you.” Her voice is raspy as she bites her lower lip.

  I never expected to hear those words leave her lips. There’s just some things you expect not to hear when you’ve essentially been friend-zoned. “I want to kiss you” is pretty high on that list.

  But I’d be lying if I said in this moment, I don’t want to kiss her too.

  So I do. I lean forward and make the move before she can change her mind.

  Her lips are soft, and warm, and she smells like home.

  But she also smells like Rev, and a lingering scent of Dustin still hangs around like the poison ivy that just won’t go away.

  I can't help the stirring in my stomach, that feeling of fullness rearing its head again. Jade deepens our kiss, a small sound of contentedness escaping her throat, and I am back at full mast.

  No one has ever kissed me like this.

  Like I’m the fucking light at the end of the tunnel.

  Like I’m perfect, just the way I am.

  She grinds her hips against me, and suddenly… It’s like I’m someone else.

  Like I’ve been removed from my body, watching everything transpire.

  My fingers trace up her back, finding their way to her hair, running over every inch of her as her tongue searches for mine.

  My breathing hitches.

  She tastes sweet, and salty at the same time.

  She pushes me down onto the soft mattress, and I let her. I can’t deny it feels so fucking right to be beneath her like this. I’ve always liked a little dominance. Feeling like I’m being used. To feel those things from Jade... She leans on my stomach, a most delicious weight.

  She whispers in my ear.

  “I need you. You know that right?” Her breath is hot on my skin and I run my hands over her, grabbing her hips, pushing her to meet mine.

  I can feel the heat from the friction, and I know what she is asking.

  I know exactly what she needs.

  But I also know there is no going back from this.

  Once we cross that line, from friends to more, things will never be the same.

  But maybe that’s okay. Maybe change is good.

  “Yeah, baby. I know. I need you too.” I lean up and kiss her with as much confidence as I can, giving her the permission she seeks.

  Jade slowly peels my shirt off, running her little fingers over my chest, stopping at my tattoo. Two wolves howling at the moon.

  “What is it?” My voice is husky, needy. My cock aches for release. For Jade.

  “Nothing, just appreciating the fine specimen in front of me. The one I’ve taken for granted all these years.” Her eyelashes flutter as she runs little circles around my pec, stopping at my nipple, pulling it between her fingers, causing me to groan and my cock to throb.

  Christ.

  “It's us.” I swallow hard as I say the words. Jade looks at me with that soul searching gaze, and it is like the entire world is upside down.

  I’ve never told anyone that. As far as everyone knew, it was just a regular tattoo, one to immortalize our connection to the wolf.

  But there is only one person who I truly connect with, who my wolf loves just as much as me.

  Jade plants a kiss right over my heart, the sensation of her lips on my skin soft like velvet, right over the wolves howling at the moon.

  I tear at her shirt, and then it is a flash of chaos. My hands tear at her clothes while hers move over me, making very quick work of removing my pants. Everything is a blur.

  A beautiful, dark, blur.

  She presses her breasts against me, and my hands slide over her thighs, settling on her ass.

  Dustin loves her ass. Especially smacking it.

  Jade doesn’t seem to mind when he does it, so it seems like a fair thing to do.

  The skin jiggles beneath my palm, and she lets out a small moan.

  “What is everyone’s deal with my ass?” she mewls.

  “I mean, to be fair, it’s a pretty fine ass.” I smack it again and she bounces in my lap with a giggle.

  “Harder.” She looks me in my eyes, and I heed her command.

  I note her flesh pinks up pretty well from the pressure.

  And then I think about how it would feel to be the one in her place. For someone to make my ass red like that. My cock twitches, and Jade smiles devilishIy.She pushes me down further, hands stilling on my chest with all her might.

  “Is that what you like?” she purrs.

  No one’s ever asked me what I like. They usually just want me to deliver pleasure to them. And I’m happy to oblige, but put on the spot like this, I’m feeling pretty overwhelmed.

  I could say a million things, but all I settle on is, “Yes.”

  “Is this what you want to do to Rev?” Her voice fucking kills me.

  “No.” I swallow, rubbing myself against her, seeking release.

  “Then tell me what you want to do to him.” Her voice is commanding, and as she says the words, I feel her slick wetness wrap around me tightly, and I can’t help the moan that comes out of my throat.

  “Feel him. Kiss him. Fuck him,” I answer her.

  “I bet he’d like that,” she responds, her words breathless. “Would you let him fuck you?”

  “Yes.”

  “Spank your ass?”

  “Yes,” I groan.

  I thrust up as she rocks forward. “I’d like to see that.”

  “Fuck, Jade...” I grab her with force, probably a little harder than I should, but she doesn’t seem to mind. She moves her mouth to my ear and whispers dirty words.

  The way in which she explains the things he did to her, is too damn much. My hand fists in her hair as I thrust into her with reckless abandon.

  “Harder, Ranger…” I oblige, and from the sound of her moan, my name edged in incoherent mumbling amid my own release, she is seeing stars too.

  Silence follows, but it isn’t awkward or strange.

  It is bliss.

  It seems like forever until she slides off of me and curls up to my side, nuzzling my chest, wrapping her arms around me. My arms pull her close, and I draw circles on her shoulder.

  “Now, that was fucking hot,” she says sweetly, her voice the last thing I hear as I drift off to sleep.

  Chapter 43

  Reverie

  I wake up, the room I’m in shrouded in darkness. I feel like I’ve been sleeping forever, and like I had the best sleep of my life. Getting out of bed, which was so nice to sleep in, I go in search of Jade and Ranger. I head downstairs to the couch, but they aren’t there, and the fire has long been put out. Looking at the clock, I see it’s nearly four in the morning.

  Where could they be?

  I go back upstairs and check the bedroom across from the one I was sleeping in. Jade and Ranger are lying in the bed, Ranger on his side with Jade tucked close to him, his arms wrapped around her.

  The smell of sex lingers in the air, and even if I hadn’t smelled it, I’d know. They’re both still naked.

  I should be mad. I should be upset, jealous, or something.

  But the only thing I’m feeling is my dick hardening in my jeans.

  Since this new Rev grew some balls, and has become braver, I decide to follow my instincts. I’ve seen the way Ranger has been looking at me lately. I wasn’t sure I wanted to accept it at first—it’s a big thing to handle—but seeing him now, firm lines and hard muscles curled around my girl—our girl—there is no more denying it. I have to admit it.

  I want him.

  The way he smiles, the way his eyes brighten when he looks at Jade. The fact that no matter what is going on, he will always make you laugh. He’s loyal, he’s smart, and he’s funny as hell.

  And Jade loves him.

  I lose my shirt and pants, shocked I was even able to sleep with them on at all. My cock strains against my briefs, but I leave them on for now. There is just something about someone else peeling them off. Doing whatever they can do to get to what they want. I can’t help but think about the idea of Ranger doing such a thing. To me. I walk to the side of the bed, and place my knee on the mattress only inches from Ranger’s ass. The mattress billows at the pressure of my body, and I pause, taking in the sight of the masculine form in front of me.

  He has a nice ass. Round and firm. My hand finds his hip and I slide it down his thigh softly, then over that perfect ass, amazed at how this very motion, the touch of his bare skin doesn’t bother me. Thoughts and feelings that are foreign to me, but also feel so undeniably right push forth.

  I want more of this, more of him. And her.I want all of us.I slide my hand up and forward, over his hard abs, teasing his skin with my fingers. He doesn’t move, and part of me wonders if he’s going to wake up… if he’s going to tell me to stop.

  How would I feel if he did? Sad, I think. But something tells me he wouldn’t do that. So I keep going.

  I move my hand further down, fingers teasing the hair above his already hard cock as my own twitches. I want to feel him in my hand, but something stops me, something I haven’t felt in a long time—doubt. Maybe this is a bad idea. I move to pull my hand away, but another one wraps around my wrist, the grip firm, tight. Ranger stirs, and I freeze.

  After a long pause, Ranger slowly guides my hand downward until my fingers are grazing against his dick. My eyes fall shut and I suck in a sharp breath as I wrap my fingers around his hard length. I’ve never been one to think about such things, but it’s impossible to ignore now and I’m appreciating how Ranger’s more equipped than he lets on. With his hand still on my wrist, he guides me up and down, his hips slowly bucking forward. He doesn’t push me, just... slowly brushes himself against me, like he’s worried I’ll change my mind.

  I reach for his shoulder with my free hand and pull him to his back. My hand finds the column of his throat, my thumb pushes under his chin causing him to look up at me. I’ve never done this before, but something in this act, the way he trusts me, looks at me, feels right. Even in the dark I can make out the light honey color of his eyes, and they’re full of need. His fingers dig into my wrist, the edges of his fingernails sharp against my skin as I work him faster, never taking my eyes from his. He tries to tilt his head away from me, but I hold it firm. “Don’t look away from me,” I whisper as a command. My voice is raspy, and dark. I want to watch his face as I do this, as he comes undone. Know that the hazy look of ecstasy in those eyes is because of me. He swallows hard and removes his hand from my wrist, sliding it along my stomach, down below the waistband of my briefs and finds my erection. His dick throbs in my hand as he cups my balls, rubbing them gently. The sensation of his skin on mine is different. It’s not rough or as abrasive as I thought it would be. Instead it’s warm, and soft, and it feels pretty damn good. I suck in a breath, and steady my grip on him.

  I’ve never done anything like this before, but fuck it.I want this, so I’m going for it. I lean down, sure to keep eye contact with Ranger as I swipe my tongue along the tip of his cock, licking up the tiniest drop of precum. I taste Jade on him, mixed with his own flavor and it drives me fucking wild. He groans deeply as I do it again, and Jade stirs beside him. He freezes, his eyes darting to her, a flash of fear in them. He pulls his hand from me and places it beside him, but I don’t stop, continuing to run my tongue down his length. A part of me wonders if I’ll be able to handle the actual size of him in my mouth, or if I’ll suffocate. I decide to double down. Carpe diem, or some shit. I pull my mouth from him and start to use my hand. “I told you not to look away from me.” His eyes find mine again and I smile at him, wanting him to know how okay I am with this. How much I want this. I don’t know how I know, but I know it's what he needs. I’m so caught up in Ranger, in the way his lips are parted and his eyebrows furrowed, that I don’t notice Jade is fully awake. Her quick, sharp breaths take me by surprise.“Reverie…” she lets out a whisper, and she settles into the curve of Ranger, her hips brushing against the back of my hand as I hold him still. She runs her fingers along his chest, teasing his hardened nipples and she nips at his lips with a sweet kiss. Ranger moans into her, and the sound has my own cock twitching, ready to burst. I don’t miss the look of excitement, or happiness in her eyes as she gazes at him through her lashes. He kisses her, and the sight is most appealing.

  She breaks their kiss and moves further down, trailing her lips down his abdomen slowly, finally wrapping her lips around Ranger’s cock. His hand moves to the back of her head, running his fingers through her hair gently before gripping it at the base and twisting it around his hand. The muscles in his forearm tense as he guides her head slowly up and down his length. His breathing is rapid and deep, and small sounds of ecstasy escape his throat.

  I take in the sight in front of me, my own cock throbbing with the need to come at how hot all of this is. I’m surprised I haven’t yet.

  Ranger’s free hand dips into the waistband of my briefs this time and he pulls me forward. He twists, leaning over to me and runs his hot tongue along my belly. The motion sends a shiver up my spine, and I can’t deny that it feels really fucking good.

  “Rev?” Jade’s husky voice calls my name. My eyes flick to hers.

  “Yeah?” I choke out, my voice dark, deep, and heavy with need.

  “A little birdy told me Ranger likes his ass spanked.” She focuses her gaze on me, a small smile pulling at her lips. I raise a brow and look at Ranger, who looks almost embarrassed. Fucking embarrassed. I can’t believe it. His eyes glance down quickly, cheeks reddening under my gaze.

  “That so?” I ask. I’ve never spanked anyone. Sexual or not. But I like the thought of it. Of making his ass red with my palm. Of being the one in charge.I don’t hesitate. “Get up, Ranger. On your knees.”