He lifted his hands to heal himself at a touch, but his powers did not come forth.

  He realized why, and the understanding struck him like a slap across the face.

  All this time, he had protected Waterdeep—this city of faceless citizens—and protected those he loved and cherished. But he could not do it at the cost of his own principles. He could not compromise the deepest commitment of all: to himself.

  So that he might continue in his duty, he hadn’t revealed himself after Lorien, or after Talanna had been hurt. The threefold god had not punished him for that. But when he hadn’t revealed himself today, he’d chased away his only friend other than Cellica.

  Although Araezra was alive, he knew he had acted wrongly. The Threefold God had taken his powers for sacrificing his duty to himself for his duty to others.

  He saw that he must do both—fight for the city, and fight for himself and those he loved. He would prove himself worthy.

  He swore it.

  CHAPTER 18

  To prepare for the revel, Cellica took Myrin to a dress salon called Nathalan’s Menagerie—named, Cellica explained, for the elf noble who was the owner.

  Lady Ilira Nathalan owned a number of such shops across Faerûn, which did their part in supplying—and in many cases creating—the fashions of the day. Patrons tried on styles amid cages filled with exotic birds and flowers. The gowns, sashes, and shoes were rich in quality but low in cost, which, Cellica explained, was the reason behind the Menagerie’s success.

  “I don’t know how she does it,” Cellica said as she gestured to gown after gown for the attendant to take for her, “but some lucky goddess must watch over her supplies. Her prices always undercut her competitors. Nobles usually have their own seamstresses as a matter of pride, but Ilira caters to merchants and other wealthy folk who don’t have signets stuck up their—heh.” Cellica smiled wryly. “Better dresses, too, though don’t let the nobility hear that.”

  Myrin watched as a pair of lovely middle-aged human women draped a series of gowns over their chests, admiring the colors in the mirror. An attendant—whom Myrin realized must be a half-orc, owing to her small tusks and gray skin—watched impassively. Her hair was a brilliant pink that could not be natural. It reminded Myrin of her own blue hair, which she pawed at idly.

  “Ninea,” said Cellica, tugging at Myrin’s arm and pointing to the half-orc. “Just watch.”

  One of the customers framed a request to Ninea the half-orc, who touched the woman’s shoulder briefly. The effect was as sudden as it was impressive: the woman’s skin took on a brilliant golden sheen, astonishing her companion, who gasped and broke into tittering.

  “Gods!” Myrin said. “That’s amazing!”

  “Simple magic,” Cellica said. “Ninea has a spellscar that lets her alter colors to match her whims. Temporarily, of course.” She continued breezing through gowns. “Certainly you could find cheaper attire elsewhere, but the quality is hard to defeat.” She selected her tenth and eleventh. “Perhaps it’s goodness rewarding the same.”

  “Aye?” Myrin hadn’t selected a gown—she was remembering Kalen’s glare.

  “Aye,” Cellica affirmed, taking down her twelfth. “Lady Ilira’s a patron of the Haven of the Scarred, for those run afoul of spellplague or other magical maladies—a consortium of priests and healers. I’m a member.”

  The halfling frowned at a conservative brown gown Myrin was looking at and led her away. “It’ll be a costume revel,” she said. “Most of these are a particular lady from history—that one must be a Candlekeep ascetic. Boring as old rat tails!”

  “What?” Myrin was standing shyly to the side, grasping her right elbow behind her back and burrowing her left foot into the floorboards.

  “Pay it no mind, dear,” said Cellica. “Let’s find another that suits you better.”

  “Oh?” Myrin behaved around the finery the way a mouse must in a hall full of cat statues. She was terrified she would perish under the assault of silk. “Can … can we afford this?”

  “Of course! We halflings have a way with coin. Just none of the priciest, eh? Ooh!” Her eye fell on a rich cloth-of-silver gown. She spoke with a halfling attendant in a language Myrin didn’t understand, winced, then nodded. The gown went into the attendant’s already full arms.

  The half-orc woman with the bright pink hair brushed past Myrin. While the attendant was dexterous enough, Myrin’s inherent clumsiness almost knocked her over. The half-orc had to catch her by the hand and ward her off. Ninea’s hand sparked against hers. “Ooh, sorry!” Myrin said.

  The woman started to respond, then shook her head, seeming faint.

  “Ninea?” asked the halfling attending Cellica and Myrin. “Be ye well, lass?”

  “Aye,” said the half-orc. Her hair, Myrin saw, was fading from its sharp pink to a dirty brown. “Just weary, methinks.”

  “Well, ask Ilira if you can go early, aye?” Cellica’s voice carried a touch of compulsion.

  “Aye.” Ninea gave Myrin a curious look. “Aye, I’ll do that.”

  The half-orc wandered to the back of the salon, looking ill.

  Hesitantly, Myrin selected three gowns—a gentle, deep blue affair with gold trim, a conservative green with silver chasing at the bodice, and a sleek black garment. She didn’t particularly want any of them. She pulled Kalen’s worn tunic tighter about her body. She liked how it smelled—it felt like Kalen was embracing her. Why did he have to be so handsome?

  Stop it, girl, she thought. You don’t even know who you are. You shouldn’t worry about men—particularly ones who hate you!

  She hoped Kalen didn’t hate her, after what she’d done—accidentally—to Fayne.

  But what had she done?

  As they made their way to the mirror-walled fitting room, Myrin spotted Ninea near the back of the Menagerie. The woman she spoke to was slim and elegant and beautiful, with long midnight hair and delicate pointed ears. An elf, Myrin thought, but there was something … otherworldly about her. Looking at her made it hard to breathe.

  “Lady Ilira herself,” Cellica said, poking her head around Myrin’s waist. “Aye—you’re thinking she can’t be mortal. She’s an eladrin, lass—they’re all like that.”

  “Eladrin?” Myrin frowned. She’d never heard this word before.

  Cellica shrugged. “High elves, eladrin, all the same to me.” She took Myrin’s arm. “Come—you’ll see her again at the ball, of course.”

  “She’s coming?” Myrin hadn’t thought there might be nobles there, but of course there would be. Good thing she would be in costume, otherwise she’d be too afraid to show her common face. Around such a creature as Lady Ilira, she would feel even worse.

  “Every year!” Cellica said. “It’s a tradition.”

  Myrin blinked then hurried to follow. She felt self-conscious trying on the gowns with the aid of an attendant, but the way Cellica casually flung clothes around made her relax. The attendants measured them, then waited for a decision. The dresses would be altered later, to be picked up in time for the revel.

  “The dance between Ilira and Lorien is traditional,” Cellica said. “Every year, she and Lady Lorien dance at the height of the ball. No two ladies are closer friends than that pair, and—so the gossip says—it’s more than that.” She tossed a slinky green gown over her shoulder, and the attendant barely caught it. “But never we lesser mortals mind.”

  Myrin blushed, though she couldn’t say why.

  “And who … who will Lady Ilira dress as?” Myrin asked. If she stood on her toes, she could just see the elf woman over the mirrors, surveying her salon.

  “Probably no one.” Cellica shook her head. “She always wears black, and lots of it,” she said. “Dull, I know, but she’s so elegant.” She leaned in close to Myrin. “Some say she does it in mourning for a lost love, but I rather think it’s to hide something. Unsightly tattoos or scars or the like. Some say she has one on her back—and that’s why she never wears her own backless gowns—though I think there’s a reason she always wears long gloves, let me tell you.”

  “How do you know all this?” Myrin asked.

  “One of us has to keep up with the news in the city, and gods-know Sir Shadow isn’t going to do it.” Cellica shrugged into a silver gown and admired herself. “And I like gossip.”

  Myrin smiled and looked at her feet—thinking of Kalen.

  The attendant returned with a woven basket in which lay two gowns. “If you would be pleased,” she said, “the lady suggests you try these.”

  Cellica frowned at the gowns. “Who—?”

  “Lady Ilira,” said the attendant. “She saw you in the Menagerie and thought these colors and styles might serve. Fitted per your measurements. Perhaps … a happy coincidence?”

  Curious, Myrin looked across the room. Lady Ilira was gone. She seemed to have vanished into the shadows. It gave her a chill.

  “Ye gods.” Cellica held up a scarlet gown, human-sized. She eyed Myrin devilishly.

  “I don’t think—” Myrin started, but Cellica wouldn’t accept such an answer. She disrobed timidly while Cellica drew on a gold gown.

  Myrin had to admit the red dress looked fine. It was sleek, it was daring, and it was bright without being gaudy. And the cut was perfect—it hugged her waiflike curves in a way that was not at all waiflike, but neither was it loose. She almost thought she looked pretty.

  “Perfect for your skin!” Cellica nodded.

  Myrin looked at her shimmering skin in the mirrors. In the soft lighting of the salon, it glowed a deep tan like polished betel wood. She blushed.

  “The blue doesn’t really serve,” said Cellica. She stood on a stool, straining up to finger Myrin’s shoulder-length hair. Myrin flushed and tried to look away from the mirror, only to remember she was surrounded by mirrors. “It’s a lovely blue, and all, but it’s … blue.”

  Myrin’s insides tingled. “What … what would serve?”

  “Well,” Cellica said, “this one’s an evening gown worn by the legendary Lady Alustriel of Silverymoon, who—as one of the Seven Sisters—had silver hair to her waist. If we could just get Ninea over here. Shame, as she charges such hard coin for—”

  And just like that—as Myrin watched in the mirror—the scraggly blue hair spun and swam like the currents in a whirlpool. In a breath, it turned to rich, burnished silver and fell to her waist.

  Cellica’s eyes widened. “Now that … that’s impressive.” She looked for Ninea, who had disappeared out of the store, then leaned toward Myrin to whisper. “Can you do aught for me? I’d love … I’d love a good crimson, if you wouldn’t—”

  “I don’t even know how I did it for me.” Myrin blushed. “I could try—”

  “No, no!” Cellica said, turning white. “It looks too glim for such a risk. Keep it that way.”

  Myrin frowned. Then she realized something. “You wanted crimson? Like Fayne’s hair?”

  “Ha! Hark—how the day wanes!” Cellica picked nervously at the gold dress. The color flattered her well and the gown was cut with gods’ eyes to show flashes of sunbrowned flesh on her slim belly. “This one, then.”

  She whistled, and their attendant glided over. The halfling didn’t seem surprised to see Myrin’s silver hair.

  “I think we’ve decided,” Cellica said, and Myrin realized she wanted to be away from the salon as soon as possible. Was it something she had said?

  “Please, my lady, to have these as well,” said the halfling girl, presenting two parcels bound in waxed string. “Less elegant—more practical, but fine. A gift, for gracing the Menagerie.”

  Cellica blushed furiously. “We can’t accept these,” she said.

  But the attendant shook her head. “Lady Ilira mentioned aught of a debt,” she said. “She spoke of a ‘shadow that wards’?” She shrugged. “She said you would understand.”

  Cellica and Myrin shared a long, curious glance. Then the halfling smiled. “Very well, but we pay for these in full.” She gestured to her gold gown and Myrin’s scarlet.

  The attendant shrugged. She looked at Kalen’s borrowed tunic and breeches and tried to hide her disdain behind her kerchief.

  Cellica murmured a laugh. “Better just toss those out, I think.”

  The attendant nodded and took up the old clothes, averting her nose. Myrin watched the clothes in her arms and felt Cellica’s eyes. The halfling smiled at her mysteriously.

  “Cheers, peach,” Cellica said, squeezing her hand. “No reason to fret—he did promise to take you to the revel, not that other stripling.”

  “But—”

  “Kalen, for all his faults, is a man of his word.” Cellica winked. “Don’t you forget that!”

  When Cellica turned away, Myrin wiped at her cheek and noted in the mirror a tiny blue rune on her wrist, glowing softly. It hadn’t been there when she’d entered the salon, but it was there now—a bright little spot that filled her with nervous dread. It felt warm to the touch and didn’t fade no matter how long she looked at it.

  Myrin looked where Lady Ilira had stood, at the back of the Menagerie, but no one was there. She saw only a shadow on the wall, which flickered away as though someone—unseen—had moved.

  “Come, lass!” Cellica called. “Delay too long, and I’ll just have to buy another!”

  CHAPTER 19

  Fayne rose late the following morn, in her rooms above the rowdy Skewered Dragon in Dock Ward. She was alone, and every bit of her ached.

  Awakening from reverie alone in her own bed was in itself cause for concern. She hadn’t spent more than a dozen nights alone in all the years since her mother’s death. She normally required only a few hours of the trancelike rest—only half what she had just spent. She must have felt truly awful, to fall into bed by herself and rest the night through.

  Perhaps she had even spent some of the time in real sleep—ye gods. Maybe she was wearing a half-elf’s face too much.

  She recalled that the owner of the Dragon had questioned her gruffly when the carriage had dropped her off, but she’d waved him aside, along with the catcalls of patrons. She’d ignored the sneers of the serving girls—saucy wenches who sold their charms as openly as drinks—and managed to climb up to her chamber before collapsing into bed.

  She examined the damage in the mirror. That blue-headed snip had muddled her mind, adding worry lines around her eyes and lips. She’d often wondered what it would feel like, being struck by dark magic—gods knew she’d done it often enough herself.

  “Hit me with my own power, eh?” she murmured. “Children.”

  All in all, totally unacceptable, she thought. She set to work. She would just touch up a few details of her appearance.

  She caressed the invisible pendant that hung at her throat. It faded into sight and gleamed as she harnessed the magic—complex, powerful things for which her wand was not quite suited. It wasn’t that she couldn’t cast the shaping ritual with the wand—it just didn’t feel right to her. It was better for quick castings, particularly illusions and dark, fey-touched art. It had come from her mother, who had been a talented witch of the fey path. The amulet, on the other hand—her patron had built it precisely for this sort of ritual, which was more wizardly than warlock.

  She thought she should see Kalen today. Fayne hoped the man was suitably in agony over the wounds she had sustained in his tallhouse. She might suggest that he could make it up by taking her to the revel instead of Myrin, thus furthering her plan.

  She left shadows under her eyes, so as to make herself appear a little more vulnerable. She knew Kalen liked the gray eyes, so she made them shine. She slimmed her image slightly, and made her face just a bit more darling—her nose, in particular, seemed a bit too long, so she made it small and delicate.

  More like Myrin’s nose, she realized, and she stuck out her tongue in disgust.

  Her amulet had been a gift from her patron on her fortieth name day (gods, how long ago that seemed!), and coincided with her learning how to change her face. First, she had used the wand’s illusory powers, but her patron had taught her how to perform a ritual that would make the changes deeper, harder to dispel.

  Finished, she stepped back to admire her handiwork. This was the face she would wear this day—Greengrass, the festival of spring. It wasn’t what she’d call beautiful, exactly, but a proper seduction was accomplished according to the desires of the man or woman seduced. She winked at the mirror, glad of her false face. A blessing no one could see the real one—she didn’t spend so much effort hiding it in vain.

  Her face and body made up, Fayne selected suitable attire for the Watch barracks: mid-calf gray dress with open front, laced black bustier cut with slits on the flanks to reveal slashes of lacy red underslip, matching scarlet scarf for the cold, wide leather hat for any rain, and her favorite knee-high boots with dagger-length heels.

  None of them cheap, but none of them rich—quite what she thought Kalen liked.

  As she dressed, she smiled at the revel-ready garments hanging in the wardrobe, carefully selected for the occasion. She would have quite the laugh at that private jest—most of her best pranks were personal.

  She threw on a weathercloak to hide her outfit, whisked her way out the Dragon around a few highsun brawlers and patrons waving for her charms, and hailed a carriage.

  Vainly, Kalen had hoped that by the next day, Araezra would have calmed herself about the Room of Records and they could talk. But he hadn’t seen her all morn, and when he’d asked, a gruff Commander Jarthay had told him she was out on duty. Kalen didn’t need the subtle, tight pitch of the commander’s words to know things would be tense with Araezra.

  He hadn’t wanted to go home, so he’d spent the night at the barracks and eaten among the Guard. Thankfully, no one bothered him. His notorious indifference was good for that, at least. That morn, he had tried to work in the Room of Records, but every time he looked up from the ledgers, he would see Rath holding Araezra helpless or hear her choked whispers. Eventually, he moved outside to work in the warm, sun-filled courtyard.