No more lies, p.23

  NO MORE LIES, p.23

NO MORE LIES
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  The apology, whether genuine or another manipulation, settled like a stone in Clarissa's stomach. She watched, frozen, as LaToya was guided to the nearest patrol car and helped into the back seat, her movements awkward with hands bound before her.

  The front door opened again, revealing Pete flanked by two officers. Unlike LaToya's frantic energy, Pete seemed deflated, as if something essential had been removed from within him. His shoulders slumped forward in a posture of complete defeat, his gaze fixed on the ground before his feet. He didn't look up, didn't search for Clarissa in the driveway, didn't offer any last gesture of acknowledgment. Instead, he allowed himself to be led to a separate police car, his usual confident stride reduced to shuffling steps.

  The sight of the man who had taught her to ride a bike, who had checked for monsters under her bed, being placed into a police car like a common criminal should have satisfied the anger smoldering in Clarissa's chest. Instead, it hollowed her out, leaving an emptiness that ached more than rage ever could.

  Movement at her driver's side window startled her. Detective Michaels stood there, his expression professionally neutral as he bent down to her eye level. She lowered the window mechanically, her muscles responding to the social cue while her mind struggled to process the scene before her.

  "Ms. Jones," he said, his voice low and measured. "I was going to call you after we finished here."

  "What's happening?" Her voice sounded distant, as if it belonged to someone else.

  Michaels glanced back at the police cars, then returned his attention to her. "After investigating the fire and reviewing the DNA evidence you provided, we've arrested them for kidnapping, arson, and multiple counts of fraud." His tone remained professional but carried an undercurrent of compassion. "The investigation into the original fire has been reopened. There were… inconsistencies in the official report that make more sense now."

  Clarissa swallowed hard, her mouth desert-dry. "Arson?" The word felt foreign on her tongue. "Are you saying the fire was deliberately set?"

  "Yes.”

  Annie made a slight sound from the back seat, drawing both their gazes momentarily.

  "I'll need you to come to the station later to give a formal statement," Michaels continued, his voice softer now. "There's no rush—take some time to process this. We'll need to establish a timeline of events and verify certain details only you can provide."

  Clarissa nodded, unable to form words around the lump in her throat.

  "I'll call you later today to arrange a time for your statement." He straightened, preparing to return to his duties. "Ms. Jones—Clarissa—I'm sorry you're caught in the middle of this. But the truth matters. For your sake, and for your daughter's."

  As Michaels walked away, Clarissa remained motionless, watching through the windshield as the police cars pulled away one by one, red and blue lights still flashing silently against the neighborhood's quiet facades. LaToya's face appeared briefly at a rear window, a pale oval marked by dark smudges where her mascara had run, before the car turned a corner and disappeared from view.

  The first fat raindrop struck Clarissa's windshield, followed quickly by another. Within seconds, a gentle shower enveloped the car, creating a private world of white noise and blurred visibility. The sudden percussion of rain against metal and glass broke whatever force had held her immobile. She unbuckled her seatbelt and climbed into the back seat, awkward in the confined space but desperate to be closer to Annie.

  The baby blinked up at her, untroubled by the drama unfolding around her young life. Clarissa released Annie from her car seat restraints and gathered her against her chest, inhaling the sweet scent of baby shampoo and formula that had become her definition of home.

  Tears came then, flowing freely down her cheeks in time with the raindrops streaking the windows. The realization settled over her with crushing weight: she was truly alone now. Rejected by the Wilkins, abandoned by Jessica, who had returned to campus with promises to "work on" her father, and now the only parents she'd ever known were headed to jail for crimes committed to keep her as their own.

  "It's just us now," she whispered against Annie's downy head. "Just you and me."

  The rain continued its steady rhythm, cocooning them in white noise as Clarissa rocked gently back and forth, crying for the girl she had been, for the family she should have had, and for the uncertain future stretching before her and Annie—a future built on the ruins of two families destroyed.

  Later that week, Annie was with a babysitter for the afternoon. Clarissa forced her fingers to release the steering wheel and stepped out of the car. The Florida heat pressed against her skin as she approached the entrance, her sandals scuffing against the sun-baked concrete. A guard in a beige uniform watched her approach from behind mirrored sunglasses, his expression hidden but his posture radiating boredom mingled with authority.

  "Visiting?" he asked as she reached the first checkpoint.

  "Yes. LaToya Jones." The name felt strange on her tongue, detached from the word "mom" that had always preceded it.

  He nodded toward a metal detector. "ID. Empty your pockets. No phones, no cameras, no recording devices." His words had the rhythm of endless repetition, a script recited hundreds of times each day.

  Clarissa surrendered her driver's license and emptied her pockets into a small plastic bin—keys, a tissue, lip balm. The mundane items seemed incongruous against the institutional backdrop, fragments of everyday life temporarily displaced. She stepped through the metal detector, its frame an uncomfortable portal between the world she knew and the one she was about to enter.

  A female guard appeared at her elbow. "This way," she said, leading Clarissa through a series of heavy doors that closed behind them with definitive metallic clangs. Each door marked a threshold further from freedom, the air growing progressively staler, the fluorescent lighting harsher.

  The visitation area held a dozen stations separated by scratched plexiglass partitions. Half were occupied—a tattooed man speaking intensely to an elderly woman whose eyes never left his face; a young mother holding up a toddler so an inmate could see; a lawyer in a rumpled suit spreading papers across a narrow counter. Each tableau represented its own tragedy, its own complicated human story. Clarissa now had her place among them.

  The guard directed her to an empty station near the end of the row. "Fifteen minutes."

  Clarissa nodded, lowering herself onto the metal stool bolted to the floor. Its cold surface seeped through her thin summer dress, but the chill was nothing compared to the ice forming in her chest as she waited. On the counter before her sat a black phone receiver, its cord coiled like a sleeping snake. The plexiglass between her and the empty chair on the other side bore the marks of countless fingertips—smudges left by those desperate for connection through the barrier.

  She forced herself to breathe evenly, counting each inhale and exhale as she'd done during Annie's birth. One, two, three, four. The seconds stretched, marked by the rhythmic ticking of an institutional clock mounted high on the wall.

  A door opened on the other side of the partition, and LaToya appeared, escorted by a guard who directed her to the chair across from Clarissa. The orange jumpsuit hung from her frame as if designed for someone larger, accentuating how small she suddenly appeared. Her hair, always meticulously styled and colored to hide the gray, now hung limp around her face, the silver roots forming a stark line of demarcation—a physical timeline of her deception's collapse.

  When LaToya saw Clarissa, her composure crumbled. Her shoulders sagged further, and tears immediately welled in her eyes, spilling over onto cheeks that had lost their usual careful application of blush. Her hands trembled as she reached for the phone receiver on her side, the plastic shaking audibly as she brought it to her ear.

  Clarissa kept her face deliberately neutral as she lifted her own receiver. The anger she'd nursed during the drive to the detention center hardened in her chest, solidifying into something cold and sharp that made it difficult to breathe. She said nothing, waiting for LaToya to break the silence that stretched between them like the physical barrier of plexiglass.

  "Rissa," LaToya finally whispered, her Southern accent more pronounced than Clarissa had heard it in years. The childhood nickname sent a jolt through Clarissa's body—a visceral reminder of bedtime stories, skinned knees, and birthday cakes with too many candles. "Thank you for comin'."

  The lights flickered overhead. In that unforgiving light, LaToya looked older and fragile in a way that conflicted with the magnitude of what she'd done.

  "I didn't come for you," Clarissa said, her voice steady despite the storm in her chest. "I came for answers."

  LaToya nodded, wiping at her cheeks with her free hand. "I understand." She drew a shuddering breath. "I don't know where to start."

  "The beginning," Clarissa replied coldly. "Why?"

  The single word hung between them, laden with years of lies.

  LaToya's fingers worried at a loose thread on her jumpsuit, her eyes fixed on some middle distance as if viewing the past playing out before her. "I lost our baby," she said, her voice breaking. "Eight months along. I started bleeding at home, and soon after, I lost the child." She looked up, meeting Clarissa's gaze with naked desperation. "Pete wanted children more than anythin' in this world. It was all he talked about—little league games, dance recitals, and teaching a son to fish."

  Her Southern accent thickened with emotion. "I was so afraid of losin' him. He was devastated after each miscarriage, each failed treatment. But this time was different. We'd seen the heartbeat. We'd started pickin' names." She swallowed hard. "And then one day, while he was away for business, it was gone, and I couldn't tell him. I just couldn't."

  Clarissa's fingers tightened around the phone receiver, the plastic warm against her palm. The anger in her chest expanded, making room for something else—a confusion she hadn't expected, an unwelcome empathy she fought to suppress.

  "So, you decided to steal someone else's baby?" she asked, her voice flat.

  LaToya flinched at the directness of the question. "I wasn't thinkin' straight. Grief does things to a person, makes them capable of—" She stopped herself, seeming to realize the inadequacy of the explanation. "I saw her at the shoppin' center. Louise Wilkins. With her girl in a stroller. Beautiful thing with the sweetest blue eyes."

  Her gaze fixed on Clarissa's face, tracing features she'd watched develop from infancy to adulthood. “And I thought—" She choked on a sob. "I thought, how come they get to have a beautiful child and I have none? It wasn’t fair. They had everything. Everything."

  The justification landed like a slap. Clarissa recoiled, disgust rising in her throat. "You thought it was okay because they had money?"

  LaToya shook her head frantically. "No, no—that's not—I wasn't thinkin' clearly. It was a terrible, selfish thought. I know that now."

  But Clarissa could see the truth in LaToya's eyes. For a moment, years ago, that twisted logic had made sense to a desperate woman. And that realization—that her entire existence with the Jones family had been predicated on such a monstrous rationalization—felt like the floor dropping away beneath her feet.

  "I followed her home that day," LaToya continued, her voice dropping to a near-whisper as if the volume might somehow diminish the horror of her actions. "I just wanted to see where they lived, the kind of life they had." Her fingers traced an invisible pattern on the counter before her. "But once I knew where the Wilkins’ house was, I couldn't stop thinkin' about it. About you." Clarissa felt her stomach turn as she watched LaToya's face transform with the memory, the flicker of that long-ago obsession still visible beneath her remorse.

  "Tell me what happened the night of the fire." Clarissa kept her voice level, though her pulse raced so violently she could feel it in her fingertips gripping the phone.

  LaToya's gaze shifted to the institutional ceiling, as if the details of that night were written in the flickering lights. "Since Pete was away on business that week, no one would ask questions. I told him I was havin' some crampin', that I might call my sister to come stay with me. But there was no sister, no crampin'." She paused, gathering herself. "I drove to the Wilkins’ house after midnight. I parked a few blocks away and walked. It was a warm night, windows open in most houses."

  Clarissa pictured it—LaToya slipping through the darkness toward a house filled with a sleeping family, intent on destroying their world. The image made her involuntarily clench her hands around the phone receiver.

  "The back door was locked, but a window in the laundry room wasn't latched all the way." LaToya's voice had taken on a strange, detached quality, as if she were reciting events that had happened to someone else. "I brought lighter fluid. Just enough to start a small fire in the kitchen trash can. Just a diversion, I told myself. Enough smoke to keep them busy while I—" She broke off, tears streaming now, unchecked.

  "While you stole their baby," Clarissa finished for her, the words sharp as broken glass.

  LaToya nodded, her shoulders curved inward with the weight of her confession. "You were in the nursery. Asleep in your crib." A visible shudder ran through her. "I picked you up—you didn't even wake, just snuggled against me like you belonged there—and then I… simply left."

  The image was sickening—LaToya cradling her infant self against her chest, walking away, while flames began consuming the house behind them. Clarissa's stomach clenched with nausea.

  "You could have killed everyone in that house," she said, her voice tight with horror. "You risked their lives for⁠—"

  "I know," LaToya whispered, the words barely audible. "I didn't think the fire would spread so fast. I just meant it to be a distraction, just enough to—" She broke off, seeming to realize the futility of explaining away attempted murder.

  "Pete came home two days later to find me with a baby. Our baby, I told him. Said I gave birth on the bathroom floor. It went fast, too fast to go to the hospital. Told him we had already seen the doctor and everything was fine." LaToya wiped tears with the back of her hand, the loose orange sleeve of her jumpsuit falling back to reveal the thin blue veins of her wrist. "He was so happy, Rissa. So proud. He never questioned it—why would he? He thought I was eight months pregnant. I called him, told him you came early but were healthy."

  Clarissa's knuckles whitened around the receiver as the magnitude of the deception expanded before her. It was one thing to know the bare facts, another entirely to hear the mechanical details of how her identity had been constructed from lies.

  "The birth certificate?" she asked.

  "I worked at a doctor's office. Had access to forms, knew how to fill them out." LaToya's gaze dropped to her hands. "The state seal was harder. I paid someone who worked in the county records office. Told him we'd lost the original in a move." She sighed, the sound heavy with decades of accumulated guilt. "After a while, the lies became normal. I sometimes almost forget that you weren't born to us. You were ours in every way that mattered."

  "Except I wasn't," Clarissa said flatly. "I belonged to the Wilkins. I had a sister, later two sisters and a brother, a family, a real identity you stole from me."

  LaToya flinched as if struck. "I know that now. I've always known it, somewhere deep down." Her fingers worried at the worn edge of the counter. "Your dad suspected it, too. I told him the truth when you were about ten years old. He could see you didn‘t look like any of our other children who came later. We decided to keep it a secret. Our secret. ‘Cause we loved you, Rissa. We did. When you came home from school that day, talkin' about a girl who looked just like you—it was my worst nightmare realized. I thought maybe it was just a coincidence, but then you showed me that picture on your phone." She shook her head, remembering. "Jessica's face next to yours. Identical. Perfect mirrors of each other. I knew then it was over."

  "So, you made us leave town overnight. Pulled me away from my friends, my school, my whole life." The memories of that abrupt departure still stung—Clarissa's bewildered hurt as she was forced to pack only essential belongings, the confused texts from friends she wasn't allowed to answer. "You didn't even let me say goodbye to anyone."

  "I was terrified," LaToya admitted, her Southern accent thickening with emotion. "All I could think was that they'd take you away, that they'd put me in prison, and I'd never see you again." Her eyes met Clarissa's, pleading for understanding. "I couldn't lose you. You were my whole heart. And then later, I was so lucky to get Susan and Eric, too. We became a family. One I loved dearly."

  The naked maternal love in LaToya's expression sent a conflicted pang through Clarissa's chest. This woman had committed an unforgivable crime, yet had also kissed scraped knees and stayed up nights with childhood fevers, had cheered at soccer games and beamed with pride at graduations. The complexity of it made Clarissa's head throb. She thought about her other siblings, who weren’t her real siblings, but she still cared for them. What would happen? Would they still love one another, knowing they weren’t from the same family? Susan had gotten herself in trouble and was serving a prison sentence for drugs. Eric had gotten some girl pregnant, Michelle Stone was her name, and they were expecting a child at only sixteen. It sure was a wonderful family.

  Clarissa sat in silence for a moment, absorbing the full scope of LaToya's confession. Every milestone of her life—every birthday celebration, every school achievement, every childhood memory—had been built on this foundation of lies. The woman across from her had orchestrated an elaborate fiction that had denied Clarissa her true identity for all of her life.

  Yet despite the burning anger in her chest, Clarissa found herself unexpectedly understanding the desperate love that had driven LaToya's actions. Not forgiving—never forgiving—but recognizing the twisted devotion behind the crime. The realization disturbed her more than the confession itself. If she could empathize even slightly with the woman who had stolen her from her crib, what did that say about her?

 
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