Haven hollow 00 11 to.., p.150
haven hollow 00 - 11 to 20,
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The majority of people, after they died, moved on almost instantly, to that incredibly bright light that was the afterlife. Those with some unfinished business might linger around in a place Petra described as a sort of Limbo which existed in its own space and time. The walls between Limbo and the living world were pretty thin though, and those spirits would often manifest here, intentionally or otherwise, usually in the place where they died. Initially, the confusion of death made them unfocused, unable to communicate in words, but only able to radiate their emotions—I called those sorts of spirits ‘apparitions’. The longer they remained in Limbo, the more ‘normal looking’ they became—Petra being the ultimate result, a full-on ghost. Most didn’t stay anywhere in this realm nearly as long as Petra had. Once they understood what had happened to them and accepted it, they went elsewhere.
But even though Petra fully understood that she was dead and had been for a long while, she never seemed interested in moving on. And she never seemed able to recall what exactly had happened to her that caused her death in the first place. At first, I thought she just didn’t like to think about it—that her death had traumatized her and, thus, she didn’t want to focus on it. But as the years went on, I became more and more convinced that she really couldn’t remember the particulars. It was almost as though the whole thing was so terrible, that she’d simply forgotten all details—maybe as a way to protect herself? I wasn’t sure.
But as to moving on to the other side and Petra’s inability to do so, she said she liked things just as they were and that was why she stuck around. That was just fine with me because Petra became the sister I’d never had—only my sister was see-thru.
“Can you look any age you want?” I’d asked her once.
Petra shook her head. “Only an age I’ve been. It’s the same with clothing—I can’t dress like you because such clothes weren’t around when I was. And thank the good Lord for that—what passes as fashion these days should be criminal!”
Petra had many opinions regarding the modern era—most of which weren’t necessarily positive opinions. And I supposed that made sense, seeing as how she was brought up during a time in history that was known for being especially prudish and repressed. The ideal Victorian woman was ‘pure, chaste, refined and modest’ as Petra would tell me time and time again (usually in response to something I’d said or done that was decidedly not pure, chaste, refined or modest).
How much was choice and how much instinct, I never fully understood, but Petra always appeared my age, so as I grew up, she grew up with me. Until, that is, I passed twenty-two, at which age she’d died. And so, somewhat irritatingly, she stopped aging while I continued to do so for another (at the time of writing) twenty years.
By the time Petra and I were twenty-two, I’d already embarked on the career to which I’d devote my life. I’d always written stories, and maybe it was the presence of Petra that dictated the direction those stories would eventually take. Without making a conscious decision, the genre I always seemed drawn to was in the direction of mystery, often with a folk horror twist. I’d become fascinated by mythology and legends, and spun those threads into my books in a way that, without any false modesty, seemed to appeal to the public. And so it was that I celebrated my twenty-fifth birthday with a first bestseller under my belt, and at the party thrown for me by my literary agent, I met the man with whom I was to spend much of the next fifteen years.
When talking about Ian, I don’t know whether to speak from my head or my heart. Maybe it’s better to stick to the facts because otherwise I’d be here all day and Ian is a relatively small part of this story—as in, he’s part of the set-up, not the narrative.
Anyway, we never got married, so maybe there was always something in the back of both of our heads telling us this relationship was only for as long as it lasted, not forever. But for as long as it lasted, it was good enough.
In the end, we still liked each other, but we’d ceased to love each other. Maybe you don’t notice that happening when you’re so used to a person, when you see them every single day. Making the final break can be hard, even when it’s preceded by months of tense, sexless silence, while waiting for the other person to step up and say something.
It was Ian who finally stepped up and said something, and my major regret was that I hadn’t said something sooner. Maybe we could have revived our relationship if I’d said something sooner—maybe there would have been something there worth saving if we’d found it in time? I didn’t know and supposed I never would. Regardless, the end of the relationship meant that someone had to move out of the apartment we’d comfortably shared for the last fifteen years. It also coincided with the release of a retrospective anthology of my ‘best’ work.
Looking at that volume, I found myself feeling dissatisfied, not with what I’d done, but with the idea that it was all I was ever going to do. Skimming through stories I’d written a decade earlier, I realized how similar they were to those I’d written last year. And that meant one thing: I was in a rut, and there would never be a better time to make a change.
I told Ian to keep the apartment.
The day after my forty-second birthday, I boarded a plane to keep a promise I’d made to myself when I was just an eight-year-old girl.
I was going back to Morley-on-Avon.
“Going home!” Petra enthused and beamed the biggest grin I’d seen in quite a while.
“Nothing was stopping you from going back a long time ago,” I pointed out.
“It’s quite a long walk.”
“Couldn’t you just go into Limbo and come back out in Morley?” I teased.
She gave me a look. “Gwendolyn,” (she always insisted on calling me as such, even though Gwendolyn wasn’t even my name. It was simply: Gwen). You know that is not how the afterlife works.”
I knew. I wasn’t sure exactly how it did work, but I knew she couldn’t just come and go as she pleased.
A housing agency in the UK had set up some viewings for me in Morley, but there was one place that appealed to me beyond all others, a place that was right in the heart of Morley—a real British cottage. Little and proper and completely adorable. How could I not buy it? And it was almost crazily cheap, presumably because if you’re English, then you don’t appreciate how wonderful such sorts of things are.
“I should imagine there’s quite a bit more to it than that,” said Petra, eyeing me in that way of hers, which meant she knew something I didn’t. Or thought she did. Strangely, for being alive over a hundred years, Petra didn’t really know much more than I did. And the things she did feign to know, were usually wrong. I wasn’t sure if it was owing to the fact that she hadn’t been a very informed person when she was alive, or maybe she just became confused after death, but Petra would quite literally just make stuff up. “The cottage shouldn’t be so inexpensive—you know what they say about such things.”
“Actually, I don’t.”
She responded by propping her nose into the air as she did when she was about to come up with a whopper. “I should imagine it has a... troll problem.”
“A troll problem?” I repeated, frowning.
“Yes, they really are quite beastly creatures—worse than raccoons. And if you’ve a troll problem at that humble little estate you’re considering, they will hardly be done away with easily.”
“I’ll take that bet,” I answered, not really in the mood for any of her shrewd opinions or ridiculous ideas. This was a new adventure, and I was planning on finding myself again in a different country. Not that I’d necessarily lost myself, but sometimes relationships begin to define you (especially the long ones) and pretty soon, you find yourself sans relationship and sans a sense of self. I had a feeling I’d find that self again in Morley-on-Avon. “You’ll see, there’s nothing wrong with it—no trolls and no raccoons.”
Petra shook her head. “When you reach my age, you’ll be more circumspect.”
“You’re twenty years younger than I am.”
She waved me away with an unconcerned hand. “Only in the physical sense. And since I have no physical presence any longer, that hardly counts, Gwendolyn, dear.”
In Morley-on-Avon we were shown around the houses by an agent, who pointed out each house’s good points and smiled a lot, but my mind wasn’t sold on any of these places.
I wanted the cottage.
The cottage was called Bluebells and looking around it, I found it even more perfect than it had appeared online. Yes, this was where I wanted to live. This was where I wanted to write, and my mind was crowded with the possibilities of the sorts of stories I could dream up in such a place.
“Tell me you don’t like it,” I whispered to Petra as we looked around. I was careful to talk to Petra only when the agent wasn’t within hearing distance. In my long association with her, I’d learned how to avoid appearing as if I were speaking to the air. After all, people get very uncomfortable when you speak to others they can’t see.
“I never said I did not like it, though it is rather small,” Petra answered and she glanced around herself with what appeared to be distaste. “Such accommodations would have been quite substantial for the servants back in my day, but alas... times have certainly changed.” That was a common rejoinder for Petra whenever she was comparing the Victorian age with the modern one and finding the modern lacking. “Do I get my own room?”
“No,” I responded. “You have your own plane of reality.”
Over the years, Petra had become more of a visitor than an actual house guest. As children, we’d lived and played together, but as I got older (as we both got older) that became less comfortable, particularly after Ian and I moved in together. Petra was nothing if not accommodating and always made herself scarce during dates, romantic dinners, and what she primly referred to as ‘amorous congress’. I think it was more along the lines that she was extremely uncomfortable with anything that was ‘taboo’ and simply couldn’t handle displays of affection and certainly not ‘convivial society’ (another of her terms for the horizontal mambo).
Limbo was only ever a footstep away, so she always had somewhere to go and read a book or whatever it was they did in Limbo—it was a subject on which she was cagey for contractual reasons.
“All I said was that there was something wrong with the place,” she insisted, propping her hands on her hips as she glared at me. “A reason it should be so inexpensive,” she repeated.
“Don’t be silly.” I shook my head and hoped she was wrong.
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