She had initially thought it would be slightly uncomfortable, seeing him and knowing what they had shared, but it wasn’t. She actually found herself more at ease. Riley hadn’t attempted to kiss her again, and she had a feeling he was waiting for her to decide what she truly wanted.

  Tallinn hadn’t left either, and she couldn’t help herself and let her mind explore the emotions she felt for him. True, she loved both of them very much, but examining them as a woman would a man, she knew it was so much more than that. How had she not seen the truth all along? How had she been so blind? She didn’t know if Tallinn even felt the same toward her, but how would she ever find out? Wasn’t it taboo to love two men? To be with two men? As she really thought about it, she realized that she didn’t just love them, she was in love with them, but that there was the very real possibility she could lose them both if she revealed her desires.

  She shook her head, knowing that she could never let them know how she truly felt. It was a moot point anyway. She might want Tallinn, but aside from a stolen glance here and there that she interrupted in her own way, he had never acted as though he were interested in her. Although, neither had Riley until recently.

  She sat by the window in the library, a book in her lap as she focused on the setting sun. There hadn’t been much of it lately, but every so often, she could see it peeking through the dense clouds and making the snow sparkle like a million little diamonds.

  Tallinn had left for town several hours ago, having a difficult time pushing through the snow in his truck. It was going on two weeks now that she had been at the cabin, and the food was starting to dwindle down. Even though she didn’t want to leave just yet, she felt bad for staying so long.

  She had been able to use the snow as an excuse, but now that the storm had passed, she told Riley she didn’t want to outstay her welcome. He had given her the most appalled look which made her smile even now. She felt a little bit better knowing she wasn’t stepping on anyone’s toes by staying, but still, every time she was near them, her emotions crashed through her.

  Now that she had finally opened her eyes and accepted what had been hidden for so long, her feelings for Riley and Tallinn were starting to take their toll on her. Even now, she couldn’t help but picture how Tallinn had looked when he had come down after his shower this morning.

  He hadn’t bothered with a T-shirt, and when he had walked into the kitchen, she had to keep her mouth from dropping open. Tallinn was a big guy, tall and heavily muscled thanks to his training with the Marines, but it had been years since she saw him without a shirt on, and back then, she hadn’t fully realized her feelings toward him. Now, though, she couldn’t stop admiring him.

  His chest, honed to physical perfection, had a dark trail of hair starting below his navel and disappeared beneath his loose jeans. She got wet now just thinking about it. Thankfully, neither Riley nor Tallinn had seen the way she had been looking at him. She would have been mortified if they would have caught her.

  Riley was starting to get under her skin as well. A few days ago, she had woken up so early the sun hadn’t even risen. She had tossed and turned, her thoughts making it so sleep wasn’t an option. She finally got up and decided to move around the house, thinking it might help her get rid of some of the energy that was keeping her awake. She had stumbled upon a workout room and had sucked in a breath as she stared in rapt awe at Riley running on a treadmill. He wasn’t as tall or bulky as Tallinn. His body was tight and corded, like that of a swimmer.

  She had stood in the doorway, watching him and knowing he couldn’t see or hear her. His ear buds were in, his eyes closed, and his chest bare. Sweat rolled down his skin in rivulets that had her pussy clenching with desire. He only wore a pair of track shorts, his legs toned and muscular as he ran with precession. His muscles flexed and bunched. His body was like a machine on a mission. She had stood there until he slowed to a brisk walk and then had headed out of there so as not to be seen. She had gone back to her room and masturbated, thinking about Tallinn’s massive muscles and Riley’s toned perfection. She had come three times just picturing that over and over again.

  Her body was at a constant arousal anymore, her breasts swollen and her nipples tight. Her pussy was moist all the time, and her labia rubbed together, teasing her clit until she had to go to her room and relieve herself. Embarrassed by her body’s reaction, she found it was something that she could not ignore.

  “Lilly?”

  She looked at the doorway, Riley standing there in his loose jeans and white Henley. His hair was in disarray, and he wore his thin glasses. He was so sexy with those glasses on, like he was her professor and she was his naughty little student. Her heart pounded at her thoughts, and she blushed at her embarrassment for the illicit things she pictured. She smiled at him and set the book down, feigning complete calmness even though she felt anything but.

  “What are you doing?” He walked in and moved toward her, leaning against the window frame and staring down at her.

  “Nothing. I was just thinking and watching the sunset.” He turned and glanced out the window, the muscles in his jaw clenched tight.

  “Listen. I feel really bad about what happened between us.”

  Her heart nearly stopped at his words. “What do you mean?” She certainly hadn’t felt bad about it. Was he now regretting it?

  “I shouldn’t have put in you in that position. It was wrong, and I was being selfish. You have been through so much, we all have, and it wasn’t right for me to burden you.”

  He hadn’t looked at her when he spoke, just continued to stare out the window. Knowing that what she was about to do could quite possibly ruin everything, she stood, not wanting to deny herself any longer.

  He turned his head toward her, a flicker of surprise going over his face at her sudden movement. She moved closer until they were standing chest to chest. She lifted on her toes, cupped his cheeks, and brought his lips to hers. There was a moment that he didn’t kiss her back and she almost pulled away, but then his hand speared into her hair and urged her closer. He gripped her waist with his other hand, clenching it slightly as his tongue ran over her lips, teasing and tempting her. She opened her mouth and moaned at the feel of his tongue sliding along hers.

  White-hot pleasure speared through her with an intensity so powerful that it left her breathless. She could feel his erection straining against his jeans, pressing hard and long against her stomach and causing her own pussy to weep with the need to be filled. He had her against the wall in a matter of seconds, his head tilting more to the side as his tongue speared deeper into her mouth. He stroked and tantalized her senses, driving her higher and higher until she was forced to break the kiss and suck in a large lungful of air.

  He immediately went to her neck, licking and nibbling. The sounds coming from him were erotic and spicy and turning her insides to jelly. Her clit throbbed heavily, and her nipples grew tighter, longer, as if they were seeking out his mouth. His hands moved over her body, running up the sides of her breasts, skimming over the mounds that felt too heavy, too full.

  His palms skimmed over her sensitive nipples, and she thrust her chest toward him, seeking for more than the tentative touch he was giving. She panted when she felt him slowly push his hips into her, grind his cock into her body, and groaned deeply. His head dipped lower, his tongue leaving a trail of liquid heat down her neck, and over her collarbone until his lips were poised right above the swell of one of her breasts.

  Before she could say anything, his mouth had taken possession of her nipple through the thin fabric of her shirt. Her bra was thin also, the cotton doing nothing to hinder the pleasure Riley was giving. He grabbed her breast, squeezing and massaging the mound until she soon found herself pushing her hips out in wanton pleasure. She could feel the defined length and girth of his shaft, which made her gasp with lust.

  He sucked hard, her shirt and bra becoming saturated from his saliva and fueling her desire higher. She let her head fall against the wall as she gripped his shoulders. His mouth moved to the other breast, and she opened her eyes and looked down. The white material was nearly transparent as it suctioned to her breast, her areola clearly evident through the fabric from her engorged nipple pressed against the shirt.

  His hand moved the hem of her shirt up until she could feel the smooth and warm skin of his fingers caressing her. He moved his hand over her waist, up her ribs, and cupped the breast he wasn’t sucking on. She breathed out heavily, watching the acts he was doing as her pussy throbbed, seeped, and tingled. He worked at the front clasp of her bra, unhooking it with expertise and finally cupping the mound—flesh to flesh. The feelings he caused were exquisite, setting off an explosion of color within her.

  He tweaked and pulled at her nipple before smoothing his palm over the pleasure-pain, and then he teased the aching bud once more. He unlatched his mouth from her and looked into her face. His eyes were dark and stormy, filled with desire that mirrored hers. He took a step back, grabbed the hem of her shirt, and pulled it up. She flushed with arousal, her breathing erratic as he pushed the material over her breasts and dropped his gaze to her exposed chest.

  “Breathtaking,” he whispered.

  The word seemed so insignificant in the scheme of things but touched her heart nonetheless. “You are so beautiful, Lilly.” His expression was filled with love. “I love you. I don’t think you will ever truly know how much.”

  She swallowed, her mind and body warring. She wanted Riley with a passion, but she couldn’t get rid of that little nagging voice inside her head that told her she could possibly ruin everything. She knew for sure that if she didn’t express how much she loved him, if she didn’t open up her arms and accept what he was offering her, she would absolutely regret it for as long as she lived.

  He fixed her bra and tugged her shirt back on, wincing when his sight went to the twin wet spots that covered the material over her breasts. She didn’t know why he was stopping, her body was on fire and she wanted nothing more than to share it with him.

  He took a step toward her, kissed her gently on the lips, then leaned his forehead against hers, and exhaled. “Tallinn’s home.”

  Chapter Seven

  Lilly lay in bed that night, her stomach full after the incredible meal Riley had made but the rest of her body feeling empty. Her arousal was rampant, her pussy so swollen and saturated from her own desire that it was unbearable. She couldn’t stop thinking about how Riley had enflamed her senses. She closed her eyes and pictured what they had done in the library, his mouth on her breasts, his tongue running circles around her nipples. The only thing missing was Tallinn. She opened her eyes and stared at the ceiling. She could picture him behind Riley, his big and massive body primed and ready to give her what she wanted—both of them filling her at once. Her clitoris throbbed as she pictured how it would be, what it would feel like—their cocks pushing and straining into her body.

  She rolled over and shook her head, knowing that would never happen in reality. How could it? Sure, Riley now knew how she felt, but how would he take it when she admitted that she had the same bone deep lust for Tallinn? Dare she think that he would actually agree to it, accept it? It was a far-fetched fantasy and one she didn’t know would ever come true.

  She tossed and turned, glancing at the clock and seeing that it was the middle of the night. She wasn’t wild or wanton by any means, but as an idea came to her mind, she couldn’t suppress the urge to follow through with it, to finish where she and Riley had left off.

  She got out of bed, slipped her robe on, gently opened her bedroom door, and looked down the hallway. The house was dead quiet as she stepped out and silently closed her door. She glanced to the right, then to the left, and lingered in that direction a little longer than was necessary.

  She took a left, surprised to find Tallinn’s door ajar. She looked through the crack in the door and stared at the bed. She didn’t know what possessed her to seek out Tallinn. She had after all been meaning to go to Riley tonight. His curtains were open, and the moonlight coated the room in an ethereal glow.

  Lilly could hear him breathing heavily and was about to turn away when she heard his deep, soft moan. She froze, her eyes widening as he rolled onto his back, the moonlight making the room bright enough that she could clearly see what he was doing.

  She saw the movement under the covers first, the up and down motion that told her exactly what he was doing. She drew her gaze to his face. His eyes were closed, and his mouth slightly open. The sheet was pooled at his waist. His chiseled, hard chest was bare and rippled as his muscles contracted. This is so wrong. Leave, Lilly, stop being a voyeur. She repeated it in her head, a mantra that didn’t get her feet moving as she continued to watch him stroke himself. If only the sheet went down a little more, if only she could see his hand moving over his cock, stroking it as he found his release.

  Her pussy had already been wet before she stepped out of her room, but now she was saturated. Adrenalin pumped through her body, her clit throbbing in time with her pulse. His breathing picked up, and she could tell he was close to coming. Sweat was glistening on him, and the movements under the sheet became quicker, harder. She could hear the sound of flesh slapping together, the noise so erotic it was making her lightheaded.

  “Lilly.”

  Her name was a whisper on his lips, and for an instant, she feared that he had caught her, but his eyes were still closed.

  Oh my God.

  She turned away quickly and stumbled slightly, and she tried to control her breathing. It seemed unbelievable what she had witnessed was true, Tallinn masturbating to the thought of her.

  She knew she had heard and seen right but still, unbelievable. She had meant to visit Riley tonight, to finish what they had started in the library, but how could she go to Riley when Tallinn was on her mind? How could she get pleasure if she was imagining the three of them together, the three of them moving as one as they found their release?

  She shook her head and went back to her room, gently shutting the door and slipping into bed. She looked at the clock once more, knowing that the morning couldn’t come soon enough.

  She slowly opened her eyes, the heavy presence drawing her out of her slumber. She was surprised she had been able to fall asleep at all, but when she turned and stared blurry eyed at the clock, she saw she hadn’t slept more than an hour.

  The moonlight shone through her window, almost iridescent as it illuminated everything it touched. She glanced over her shoulder at her bedroom door. Her heart beat hard when she noticed the large body shrouded by shadows leaning against it, but she could easily tell the outline of the massive form.

  She watched the figure for a suspended moment, breathing heavily as it moved toward her with unhurried steps. She slowly sat up, the sheet falling to her waist while she watched with a mix of fear and…arousal. He stepped into the moonlight, his chest bare and rippled with muscles, his drawstring pants hanging low on his waist and doing nothing to hide the thick erection pressing against them.

  She let her eyes travel up his body and stared wide-eyed into Tallinn’s tense face. The shadows crossed over his ruggedly handsome features and gave him an air of danger to his already powerful persona.

  “Tallinn?” she whispered, confused as to what he was doing in her room and unable to get the image of him masturbating out of her mind. “Is everything okay?”

  “Did you like watching, Lilly?”

  She swallowed, and his deep and husky voice speared straight through her pussy. “What?” Her voice cracked slightly, her face becoming hot as mortification washed through her. She swallowed again, her throat feeling incredibly parched as she watched his gaze travel to her breasts, her nipples betraying her, tightening under his stare.

  “You will answer me, Lilly.”

  She shivered, his deep, commanding voice that implied he would brook no argument regarding what he wanted. His eyes went back to her face, and she knew she wasn’t going to lie to him—she knew she didn’t want to disobey him. His expression was thick with lust, his eyes mere slits as he took another step toward her and stopped at the edge of the bed.

  “Yes.” Her pussy tingled and swelled, and his stare heated her further.

  “You’re going to tell me what I want to hear, Lilly.”

  She felt like she was suffocating. Her arousal and brain were raging war between each other. Here she was, staring at a man whom she had grown up with, a man whom she loved with all her heart, and all she could think about was how much she wanted to feel his hard cock pushing into her pussy.

  She didn’t dare take her eyes off him as she tried to make her mind understand what he was asking her to do. The puzzle pieces finally went into place, and she shivered from the intensity of it, from how hot it made her.

  “Yes. I liked watching you, Tallinn.” She gripped the sheets as she murmured.

  A slow, sensual smile played over his lips. “Good.” He stalked toward her like a lion tracking its prey, his intent clear on his face as he moved onto the bed and next to her and placed his hands on either side of her hips, forcing her to lean back.

  “What are you doing, Tallinn?” She licked her suddenly dry lips. He was so close she could smell the dark and addictive scent of him, that purely male aroma that had her breath coming out in short pants.

  “I’ve wanted you for so long, Lilly. So fucking long.”

  Oh my God, am I actually hearing right? Everything was so surreal. First Riley had professed his love to her, and now Tallinn was telling her how much he had wanted her. She was torn between being loyal to her friends and wanting to share her body with them.