“What pisses me the fuck off was the fact that y’all knew she was just gon’ get on a fucking airplane without telling us. Both of y’all know how the fuck we roll when it comes to shit like this.”

  “Don’t fucking yell at me, Peanut. Rose’ is a grown ass woman. Neicee or me can’t tell her what to do. So shut the fuck up talking to me okay?”

  “Right now is not the time for all of that. We have bigger shit to deal with. Neicee, I’ll deal with your ass later. I can really fuck you up for your behavior lately.”

  “Whatever, Peanut.” Neicee waved him off and started scrolling through her phone. I felt really bad at the moment because I have everybody all into it due to my actions. I was wishing I had just told him from the jump. If looks could kill, I would be a dead ass bitch. Remy wanted to kill me.

  “I’m sorry about all of this. I won’t even go, Remy. You know all I want to do is protect us. I would never go against you or lie to you if I thought it would be detrimental to our family. You have to believe me babe.” I got up and went towards him. I sat down on his lap and hugged him tight. He grabbed my chin and kissed my lips. At the same time, he wiped my tears away with his thumbs. I watched as he flamed up a blunt and inhaled deeply. He passed it to me and I did the same.

  “Daddy needs you to get it together. Right now I’m out of commission and there ain’t much I can do. However, you going to Chicago is the best idea you ever could have come up with. See all them motherfuckers back there think I’m dead and of course you’re the mourning widow. Ace thinks that he has your back up against the wall, but little does he know you have the upper hand in this shit.”

  “Are you saying that you want me to go to Chicago?”

  “That’s exactly what I’m saying and I want you to finesse the shit out of that nigga. He loses all mental focus when it comes to you and Heaven. He wants nothing more than to parade you around like his property. So, I say you go and finesse the shit out of him. There’s only room for one King and that’s me. You’re my Queen right? Our throne sits high and we look down on peasants like him and his entire crew. Can you handle that for Daddy?”

  “What if he wants to have sex with me?”

  “You get that nigga naked and blow his fucking mind. If you can fuck his mind, you can fuck his pockets. I want everything them bitch ass niggas took from us. That nigga fucking with our cash flow. While you’re doing it think of me and how I’m gon’ fuck your brains out the first chance I get. Handle that shit for me Ma and we’ll take care of the rest.

  Now go pack, you and Heaven’s flight leaves at nine in the morning. Hit that nigga up and tell him y’all are on the way. I already had a nice talk with my baby girl she knows not to mention anything of me being alive. A new friend for Choc depends on it. We all know how she feels about keeping Choc happy. So I know she will keep this secret close to home. While you’re down there, you will be linking up with Boss Lady Inc. Thug already knows that you’re on the way and they are expecting your arrival. Tahari and her crew are some real thoroughbred ass bitches. Straight gutta and don’t take shit from nobody. They will groom you into the goon ass bitch I need you to be in order to pull this shit off. I know that you’re used to me being all-soft with you Rose`, but now is not the time baby. I need you to get off that soft shit too. I need you dressed in all black like the omen and singing niggas lullabies.”

  Remy had grabbed me roughly by my chin and spoke to me in a stern voice. I have seen Remy become upset with me and get on my ass, but the way he was speaking to me now is so fucking gangsta and I love that shit. The way he got a bitch feeling I could go back to Chicago and air out the whole fucking city for my nigga.

  “I’ll do whatever you want me to do,” I said as I kissed him passionately on the lips.

  “Can we go out there with her?” Neicee asked with a look of concern.

  “We’re actually all going back, but y’all won’t be in the mix of shit until y’all drop them seeds,” Peanut said as he passed the blunt to Boo. Honey and Neicee was mad as hell. I was too because they were my ride or die bitches. We be on all good bullshit together.

  “We have to lay low ass possible. In the meantime, we have shit under control. Trust and believe me we won’t be too far away.”

  Later that night, I laid in bed next to Remy staring at the ceiling. It had been a minute since we actually slept in the same bed. It felt good lying under him. I also welcomed his loud ass snoring. I know it sounds crazy, but that shit was like music to my ears. It’s the small things like that I missed the most about my husband. As I lay next to him and watched him sleep, I knew that everything he asked of me I had to do it. Not just because I was his wife, but because, he had been so loyal to me. It was only right I go even harder for him and show just how loyal I am to him.

  On the inside, I was scared because I wasn’t sure of the outcome, but I also heard about Tahari and her crew. So I knew that I would be cool after learning the ropes from them. I heard these bitches did a massacre in broad daylight. Rocking all black leather suits on Kawasaki’s. That shit was all over the news and the hood. They took out the damn Mafia all in the name of fucking over their husbands. That’s exactly how I wanted to be. As a matter of fact, I had to step up and take over the reigns while my husband was out of commission. I was going to do everything that I could to pull this shit off. I was going to miss my sons something terrible, but I knew they were in good hands like All State. I grabbed my phone and sent a screenshot of my flight information to Ace. Of course, he sent back smiley faces saying that he would be at the airport to greet us when we arrived.

  I was so fucking irritated at him acting as if he never raped, beat, or abused me. He is truly a sick motherfucker, but I’m about to fuck him with no Vaseline just like he did to me when he ripped my asshole open from raping me repeatedly. Yeah, I’ve got to get this nigga back for all the pain he has caused our daughter and me. Don’t get me wrong when I say that. Remy is her father and he’s who goes hard in the paint for her. However, Ace is her biological father and he should have been a better person to me out of respect for her. I’ve never done anything to him for him to do the shit that he had done to me. It was me he lied to. I was a naïve ass girl and he took advantage of that. I don’t fully blame him because I was supposed to know better than to be dealing with a grown ass street nigga like that. Time after time he showed me signs that he never had my best interest at hand. Doing those drug runs made me feel like I was special and he had me doing it because he loved me. Looking back, that was by far the stupidest shit I could have ever done. I’ve learned from my mistakes and I no longer blame myself for the shit he did to me. I was a young, vulnerable girl who tricked out of her youth by a young conniving and psychotic ass nigga. I’m over what he did to me. I just hate that Heaven has suffered in the midst of all of this because she deserved for him to love her the same way Remy does.

  My poor baby was looking so crazy when she was talking to Ace on the phone. I hated that she had to accompany me while I dealt with this man, but the way the court system is set up, I have no choice. I laid my head on Remy’s chest and listened to his heartbeat. It calmed my nerves down a little bit. I couldn’t help but to slowly glide my hand down his chest and over his flat stomach onto his dick.

  I wanted to feel my husband inside of me so bad. He was still knocked out so it was easier for me to massage his dick. I hated what being paralyzed was doing to his manhood. Before all this, he would have been fucking me all day in every hole. As I rubbed the tips of my fingers across the head, I started to feel him pulsating in my hand. It was crazy how his shit was hard as a rock. He was starting to stir in his sleep. So I knew he felt what I was doing to him. I made sure not to hit his colostomy bag as I mounted him. I was leaking like a faucet so it was easy for me to glide down on his dick. I had to sit up on him in froggy style position so that my leg wouldn’t bump up against his bag.

  As I bounced up and down, I closed my eyes and bit down on my bottom lip. His massive ass dick was ripping me a new hole. It had been so long since I had some. I was feeling like a damn virgin again. I opened my eyes and Remy was staring back at me with those beautiful ass brown eyes. He firmly gripped me by my waist and began to pound inside of me with so much force that I could barely keep up.

  “Oh, shit, Remy! Wait babe!”

  “Naw, fuck that waiting. You been wanting this dick and now I’m giving it to you,” he said as he smacked me on both of my ass cheeks. That shit turned me all the way on and started bucking up on his ass like a horse.

  “Oh, my God! That shit feel good as fuck!”

  “I’m about to nut!” Remy managed to get out in between his clenched teeth. That made me ride him longer and harder until we both came at the same time. I collapsed on his chest and just laid there as the sweat from our bodies marinated onto each other. I wanted this moment to last forever because in the morning, I would be with the devil himself. I so needed this moment with my husband. It might just be sex to some of you, but it was solidifying our connection with one another. No words needed to be spoken the sound of our heartbeats spoke volumes.

  Chapter 4- Ace

  I was elated when I received a call from Rose` saying that her and Heaven were on their way back to Chicago. All I wanted was to be a family with her and my daughter. I’ve failed them in the past. Now that the nigga Remy is dead I have a chance at making her my wife and righting my wrongs. I hated that I needed to threaten her with telling her parole officer that she was out of state, but that’s the only way I knew that she would come.

  I never had any intentions on giving up my rights to my daughter. I just did that shit to at least attempt to get in Rose`s good graces. All I want is to be a father to my daughter. I know you might not believe it, but I love my daughter. I respect the fact that Remy stepped up and took care of her, but the fact still remains the same; she came from my nut sack. It’s time Heaven and Rose` realize that I am her father and nothing will ever change that.

  Besides trying to build a life with Rose` and Heaven, I was getting accustomed to being a free man. I still have no idea how I got out of prison. All I know is that I was woke up from my sleep and was told I was a free man. I’m positive the nigga Reco had something to do with it. I’m still shocked at the fact that this nigga is saying that he is my fucking father. I don’t know what the fuck to believe. Growing up, I never knew whom my father was. He did however make sure to send money every month. At least that’s what my mother told me. She never even went into detail about him.

  I wish she was here so that she could shed more light into the situation. I’m so hurt that nigga Remy felt the need to kill her. I know he is the one who did that shit. No one had the motive to hurt her. The bitch nigga lucky he taking a dirt nap because I had every intention on murking his ass whenever I touched down. At the same time, if Reco insists that he’s my father and wants me to run his drug operation. I have no qualms about that. I’m all for making that motherfucking money.

  I’ve been out of jail a month and I have more money than I’ve ever had in my life. This nigga Remy was definitely living the lavish life. I see why Rose` stayed rocking nothing but the best shit and the flyest rides. Now I’m in a position to give her the life that she is accustomed to and so much more. Not only that I really had no other family, so it was imperative I got into all my kids life. I need to give the best of everything since I have another chance at redeeming myself.

  I had finally found the bitch Diamond. She wanted me to think her ass was still in Texas, but I found out her ass was back in the Chi. She knew her money hungry ass momma was not about to let her stay out there on the run from me with no money. I swear the bitch would sell her soul for some money. That’s why I wired her some money and told her to convince the bitch to come back here and bring my motherfucking sons. I want to snap her fucking neck so bad, but I know that everything Diamond did was because of all the pain I’ve caused her. As a man, I have to accept responsibility for all the pain I’ve ever caused her and Rose’. It’s crazy but I love both of them. I miss those days when I used to fuck with both of them on the low. That shit had a nigga feeling like a king.

  I had two of the baddest bitches on my team. I swear I’ve never ran across another bitch that compare to either one of my baby mommas. On the real tho, Rose` is badder than Diamond and she always hated that shit. That’s why she had no problem with fucking with a nigga. She saw how I treated her best friend and she still wanted to fuck with a nigga. Finally, I gave her the dick and had her ass dick silly. Diamond is walking around with a chip on her shoulder over some shit that she signed up for.

  We’re still married and nothing is going to change that. At the same time I want Rose` under the same roof as me and Diamond. I want them both. Fuck a threesome. We’re about to have a Polyamorous relationship. They really have no choice in the matter. I want all my kids to live under the same roof. They might not like the shit in the beginning, but they will definitely get used to it. Diamond might go in more willingly, but I know Rose won’t be so open to doing it at first. She loves fighting me on everything. That’s why I have to deal with her more cautiously. I have to turn on the charm and get in her head. That shit has always worked in the past. Now that Remy is dead. I know that she is more vulnerable than ever.

  I had been sitting inside of the house that I once shared with Diamond. It still looked the same with the exception of new furniture in the dining room. I took a quick shit and a shower. I was surprised that I still had clothes in the house. I threw on a pair of boxers and basketball shorts. I flamed up the fattest Kush blunt ever and waited for the bitch Diamond to come home. She was in for the shock of her life. Especially since she thought I had like eight more years in prison.

  Chapter 5- Diamond

  Pissed wasn’t even a word to express the way I was feeling at the moment. My mother has got to be one of the grimiest bitches ever. After all I’ve done for her that bitch comes out of the blue talking about she moving to Florida and was selling her house. I went crazy when the bitch got to talking about it would be best if I just went back to Chicago. Out of all the places to go, she suggested I go back to the place I had been running away from. It didn’t matter that Ace was locked up. I just had so many bad ass memories of living there. At the same time, I owed so much property there. The money I had took from Ace was starting to dwindle courtesy of my money hungry ass mother. That bitch had a lot of nerve throwing me to the wolves after spending my fucking money up. That’s my fault though. All of my life its been all about the mighty dollar with her unfit ass.

  After contemplating on what I should do, I decided to just go back home to the Chi. I really had nothing to fear because Ace was locked up in federal prison. Me and my boys could live in our home and have a prosperous life. All I wanted was to give my boys a better life outside of their daddy. He loved them with all of his heart, but it was like he hated me. It was all over the bitch Rose`. In her absence, I was the one who was there for him. It was like he punished me for wanting him and at the same time he punished me because I wasn’t her. I tried my best to do everything right. I knew that I would never live up to his expectations. He wanted Rose’ and I could never be her. I guess it’s true when they say you can’t compete where you don’t compare.

  Rose` was still the prettiest girl I had ever seen in my life. I hated that I fucked up our friendship. Everything Ace had put me through was nothing but Karma for fucking over the only friend I ever had. I hoped that one day God saw fit to forgive me. Finding out that she was being held in our basement hurt me to the core. Had her girls never came to find her there is no telling how long she would have been down there. For some strange reason, I believe that all of that happened for a reason and it was a way for me to get out of the situation with Ace. I really needed to file for a divorce, but I just haven’t had a chance to do it.

  I had been out all day running errands and I wanted to take a nap before my boys got out of summer camp. I walked into the house and I smelled the scent of weed. I was taken aback because it had been so long since I had smelled weed. I thought maybe it was all in my head so I shook it off. I undressed as I walked up the stairs to my bedroom to take a quick nap. I became scared shitless and started to shake uncontrollably as I looked at Ace laying in my bed with a blunt hanging from his mouth while he stroked his dick and up and down.

  “Did you miss me?” he said as he got up from the bed and walked towards me. I slowly backed up from him trying to get out of the door. The look in his eyes let me know that he was probably about to kill my ass for putting him in jail. I started to say the Lord’s Prayer in my head as he stood directly in my face staring through my soul.”

  “Please, Ace, don’t hurt me. I’m sorry for sending you to jail. It was the only way I could get away from you. I was tired of you beating on me,” I cried as he roughly grabbed my face as if I was child. My jaws hurt as he applied pressure to them.

  “Shhhh! No need for all of the tears. All is forgiven. I’m here and I came for you and my son’s. Pack your shit and let’s go.”

  “I can’t, Ace. Just leave me alone. I will never bother you again. You can get the boys whenever you want. Just let me go.” He roughly pushed me back into the dresser and at the same time, he lifted me up and sat me down on the edge of it.

  “So you don’t love a nigga anymore. Is that what you’re telling me?” Ace dropped down to his knees and roughly threw my left leg over his shoulder. He moved my thongs to the side and inserted his tongue in my pussy. I shook all over as I began to get wet at the feeling of his tongue entering me.

  “I – I do love you, but I can’t be with you.” I stuttered, but at the same time my body was reacting to the feeling of him sucking the soul out of my pussy. I was trying my best not to enjoy his touch, but it had been so long since I had sex. Not to mention, it had been years since he was so gentle with me. He started to suck on my clit and the anticipation of me cumming was building up.