"There must be old flames igniting" they say.

  Although these statements weren't said in front of me for obvious reasons, Still, I decided to keep my distance from Freen in order to protect her. But the more I moved away, the closer she came.

  Now, she's the one wanting to always be around me but for her safety, I wanted her as far away from me as possible.

  I didn't want to make her hate me but I wanted her to keep her distance.

  I stopped our tutoring sessions and hardly attends classes but this didn't stop Freen from coming over to the house to see me.

  "What are you doing here?" I yelled in frustration when she stopped by the house again after my multiple warnings for her to stay away.

  I've been working my ass off all week to make Wellington Gold a safer place for Freen but she's just throwing herself in front of danger.

  It's like she doesn't know the gravity of the situation. My father intentionally didn't kill Freen the first time, but he gestured it as my last warning.

  He doesn't show mercy to those who go against him but he has shown Freen mercy twice by sparing her life but I know his grace has elapsed at this point.

  "Just as you have people everywhere, I also have people watching you. Don't make me hurt her, Becky. I know how much you care for her.

  I want you to have your sanity intact. so you better not make me hurt her because next time, there will be no next time" these are his exact words to me the day Freen got shot.

  He intentionally didn't kill her that day but he might just finish her off this time.

  "Is it now a crime to stop by your house and check up on you?" Freen responsed disappointedly to my question earlier.

  "I've tried my best to avoid you in everyway possible but you just keep coming closer and closer.

  I'm trying to protect you Freen. Can't you see that? Please don't make this harder for me than it already is.

  STAY AWAY FROM ME FREEN. I DON'T WANT YOU AROUND ME!!!" I screamed at the top of my voice.

  "You don't mean that" she responded really saddened by my outburst

  But at this point, I was already too frustrated. I really want Freen around and even though she doesn't remember us, we've grown closer and established a really special bond. But fate has other plans for us.

  I just wanted it all to end because it's hurting a lot.

  "Get the fuck out Freen" I said almost in a whisper as I exhaled deeply in frustration but she just stood there.

  "Dauglas, get her out of my house" Iyelled and my bodyguard forcefully dragged Freen out of the house.

  She is reluctant to leave and so he forces her out while I just stood there watching

  The moment she was out the door, I broke down in tears. I know that I've hurt her and all my efforts to make her like me, these past couple months have just gone down the drain.

  But she just doesn't understand that I'm protect her.

  My bodyguard and maidservant came to comfort me but I brushed them off and just ran upstairs and cried into my pillow.

  All three of my domestic staffs are employees of my father so I know that they're all working for him.

  But I know for a fact that the spy isn't any of them. They're all new and arrived after Freen's accident so the main spy Is still out there and no matter how much I evade my domestic staffs, the spy will still be at large watching my operations.

  And this is why I want Freen away from me but my chest hurts. It hurts so bad and no matter how hard I tried and no matter what I do, I couldn't get it to stop hurting.

  It's been two days and I haven't been able to get out of my room. The Cook prepares just the best for me but every food just seem to have lost their tastes.

  I sobbed and sometimes cries out loud. Other times, I just scream and break stuff. But the pain wasn't going away.

  On the third day, I couldn't bare the pain anymore. I wanted it to stop and I knew the remedy so I went to her.

  I was in my PJs that evening. I wanted to go to bed early but I was drowning. So I got in my car without my bodyguard and drove to the school dormitory.

  I was putting on an oversized hoodie, also a face cap, a face mask as well as dark shades to cover up how miserable I've become.

  Complimented by those PJs and flip-flops, I looked like a homeless person but at this moment, I didn't care about my appearance.

  I got to Freen's dorm room and knocked silently on the door as though I didn't want anybody inside the room to hear me knocking but the overbearing Carmen still heard the knock and answered the door.

  I looked down as she opens the door so that she wouldn't see my face but I guess she knew right away without even seeing my face that I was the one.

  "Is Freen in?" I asked still looking down

  "Hmmmm... yeah! sure.. she's home

  Freen? Miss Lawd is here" she said as she signals me to come in.

  Freen who was lying down on her bed, got up and sat down properly as I walked in.

  "Hmmm.. I.. I'll give you guys some privacy" Carmen said as she walked out of the room, leaving Freen and I alone in the room.

  "What are you doing here? You made it very clear that you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore. So why are you here?" Freen asked. I knew that she's angry about the other day but all I could say is;

  "Make it stop please"

  "What? What are you talking about, Becky?"

  At this point, tears were already rolling down.

  "It hurts real bad.. it hurts really really bad Freen, please make it stop." I felt weak and I buckled, bursting into tears. My legs were too weak and I couldn't stand up from the floor anymore.

  "I don't know what to do. I'm miserable Freen. Do I even have to say it? It's written all over me.

  I don't want you to get hurt but I don't want you to leave either. It's like either way, I'm going to lose.

  Freen it really hurts. It hurts so bad. It hurts so so bad and I didn't even hurt this much when my mother died.

  I love you Freen, I really love you and I know because only love can hurt like this.

  Please don't be mad at me, please don't hate me and leave me. You're all I have.

  Freen please say something" I sobbed like a baby but Freen just sat down there and looked at me without showing any emotion.

  I know that I messed up. I shouldn't have spoken to her in that manner when she came to visit me but I'm devastated to know that Freen doesn't care even though I'm hurting this much.

  She doesn't feel my pain and that just adds to my pain, plus the memories we shared in the past came flowing in and then I recalled that she doesn't even remember those special moments we shared anymore.

  I played everything over and over in my head and wept even louder finally accepted that loving Freen is a losing game.

  And no matter how hard I tried, I always end up losing her and even when I don't try, I'll still end up losing her.

  I knelt down there, practically on my knees crying and begging for her affection but she wasn't responding.

  I know that she fell for me first. She was shy and I teased her for it. But then I fell for her and I fell harder.

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  40

  FREEN'S POV

  We keep going back and forth. When I don't want her, she wants me. And when I finally wants her, she doesn't want me anymore.

  And we just keep repeating this loop over and over again.

  It's exhausting and I'm tired and fed up with the constant back and forth bickering between Becky and I.

  At first I woke up from a coma and found out that we were dating but all I felt for Becky was hatred. When I finally start accepting her, she starts pushing me away.

  She rudely sent me out of her house and when I'm finally accepting to stay away from her, she's now here begging.

  It's like even the universe is working against us being together and I'm trying to accept that.

  But seeing her in front of me crying like that hurts me too. And hearing her confess her love to me, just made me hurt even more.

  We just can't seem to get over our differences and find a common ground.

  I tried to keep up a straight face but seeing her weep, just broke me. I was angered by how much we were hurting because of LOVE.

  "Say something? You want me to say something?

  What do you want me to say, Becky? you just keep giving me mixed emotion all the time.

  You're begging me now but the next second, you might just be chasing me out of your house, telling your bodyguard to throw me out.

  I get it that you're trying to protect me. But what good would that do you if you just end up losing me for good?

  Honestly Becky, I can't believe you have the nerve to come here after that stunt you pulled in your house. And you dare ask me to say something.

  What do you expect me to say?" I yelled in anger.

  She stood up and wiped her ever flowing tears.

  "I'm sorry okay?" She said "I didn't mean to do that. I was just looking out for you" she explained defending her actions

  "Becky I can take care of myself. I don't need you making decisions for me? Just leave Becky, maybe that will be for the best.

  "You're asking me to leave? I don't get it. Why am I the bad guy here?

  Everything I've done, I've done just to protect you. Why are you angry with me? Why am I being yelled at for trying to help you?" Becky's screamed in frustration

  "I don't need your protection or your help Becky. I can take care of myself. You don't need to worry about me"

  (scoffs) "I don't need to worry about you" I guess you would say that. You don't know how it feels to love someone, you'd do everything possible to protect that person Freen. That's what Love is"

  "Even if it means losing that person in the process? Damn it Becky, you can't take all the responsibility of protecting me on yourself. If you keep going about it this way, you'll end up losing whatever is left of us.

  Also..." I said moving slowly towards her. I got too close to her and She felt awkward, pulling backwards with every approaching step of mine until her back was against the wall

  "You keep saying that you love me and that you're trying to protect me but... not even once have you shown me what your love feels like.

  Why don't you show me what your love feels like" I teased moving my face closer to hers.

  She closed her eyes hoping for our lips to touch but I just pulled away and smiled.

  Seeing as nothing was happening, she opened her eyes but I just giggled at her mixed emotion about the scene.

  "If you want it to happen, do it yourself" I whispered into her ear but she didn't take any action. I sighed and turned around to leave. But she grabbed my collar and turned me around.

  I lost my balance and fell on her. Seeing our bodies come in contact, now I'm also feeling awkward.

  I quickly tried to get off her but she pulled me in again and planted a quick kiss on my lips. Chill ran through my entire body as I felt her soft, wet lips on mine.

  I was just teasing her about it but it just became serious. I didn't know how to react to what just happened but I wanted more.

  She grabbed me by the waist and pulled me even closer. At this junction, I have this space in my lower belly that craves for more of her touch.

  She looked me in the eyes and shifted her gaze to my lips before leaning in for another kiss. This time, it wasn't a quick kiss.

  And even though I tried not to do anything, I felt my lips kissing her back. I grabbed her neck and pulled her deeper onto me.

  It was passionate, it was intense and without thinking, my hands were going under her top. We broke away from the kiss as I took off her oversized hoodie and PJ in one go.

  There was a 180° spin as I saw my back pinned against the wall and Becky was kissing me while pulling me in by the waist.

  And as things were about moving to the next step, Becky suddenly pulled away. "I'm sorry" she said trying to catch her breath.

  "For what?"

  "Kissing you, I shouldn't have done that. We can't kiss each other. I'm trying to protect you"

  "Yeah... yeah No. you're right. We shouldn't" I stammered as I gulped saliva, and tried catching my breath

  We both stood there, breathing heavily while staring into each other's eyes. We shouldn't, but we want to.

  It's like we read right into each other. The urge was too strong and in sync, we pounded on each other again like lionesses on their preys.

  We kissed for just about 5 seconds before I lifted her off the ground leading her to my bed.

  I gently placed her on the bed while still kissing. I went on to kissing her neck and slowly undid her bra.

  "Tell me to stop" I said breathing heavily. "Tell me to stop touching you and to stop kissing you and I will" I assured her.

  "Do you want me to stop?" I asked. "No" she muttered inaudibly.

  "Can I go down on you" I asked seeking for her consent. She didn't say anything but just nod her head affirmatively

  I slowly took off her PJs and her undies and went down of her. The moment my tongue touched her clitoris, she shuddered in pleasure.

  I was like an expert with her body. I knew everywhere to touch and everything to do.

  I had these flashes, memories of having sex with her but they were in fragments and somewhat blurry.

  I kept eating her out as she moaned and slowly, I put my index finger into her pussy which made her let out a loud moan.

  She hugged my back with her legs as her fingers move through my hair.

  I came up to her while adding more fingers into her pussy. I kissed her neck while trusting my fingers back and forth inside her.

  I used my other hand to play with her breast making it a triple threat.

  Her breath became heavier and her moan became louder as she nears orgasm.

  She let out a deep moan as she climaxed. We were both sweating profusely and the heavy breathing?

  "I've missed you" she whispered as she hugged me tightly like a baby afraid of losing her precious candy.

  I laid down next to her and she hugged me tightly on the bed as we both tried to catch our breath. "Easy Becky, I'm not running away" I jokingly said, Kissing her more.

  We stayed silent for a while before she turned around and let me spoon her.

  "Promise me Becky, that we won't hurt each other again"

  "I promise Freen. From now on, it will be me and you against the world. Not me trying to protect you from the world." She said placing a kiss on my cheek.

  "Promise?"

  "I Promise" Becky replied, smiling cutely

  "NO, pinky promise" I said

  "Seriously?" She asked. Although enjoying my childishness "Fine"

  We pinky promised and I hugged her tightly and kissing her as she giggled.

  I'm never again letting go of her. We're in this together now.

  We were just in bed, in each other's embrace when she got a notification.

  She ignored it but a few other vibrations made her pick up the phone. she checked her phone and went quiet.

  "Let go of me" she said suddenly.

  I took it as a joke and just hugged her more but she pulled away from me forcefully and started putting on her clothes.

  She ignored me as I constantly tried to talk to her. When she was done, she stormed out of the room without saying a word, leaving me utterly confused.

  What is going on? Is she regretting the sex we had?

  What is going on? Why did she just storm out of the room like that?

  This is so confusing. Becky is just so confusing. I'm guessing she's planning on creating another drama between us again.

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  FREEN'S POV

  I laid down on the bed replaying what happened between Becky and I. Sex with Becky is electrifying but I couldn't help but worry about why she left in that manner.

  It obviously wasn't because she hated the sex. It was evident from our moans that we both loved it, so why did she just leave like that?

  Carmen didn't return that night, so I had the room all to myself but yet I couldn't sleep.

  Thoughts of Becky keep floating in my mind all night long till the early hours of the next day.

  That morning, I had an early class so I left before Carmen return. While in class I couldn't concentrate on the lecture because of Becky.

  When classes for the day was over, I was conflicted between going to see Becky or not.

  It isn't nice, the way we left things off so I wanted to talk to her but I don't know if she would want that or not.

  I stepped off campus still deep in thought contemplating on whether to go see Becky or not. When Carmen stopped me.

  She was almost out of breath. "What's going on why are you running like you're being chased by a ghost or something?"

  "That's not the question on ground Freen. The question on ground is "what's the deal with you and Becky?"

  "What do you mean?" I asked confused.

  "Freen, It's just that I'm confused. last night, she came to see you right? And I thought maybe the both of you were trying to.. you know, mend things between you.

  So what's this news I'm hearing this morning?"

  "What news? what are you talking abou

  I'm talking about Becky and that guy." Carmen replied but I still couldn't understand what she's saying.

  "What guy? What are you talking about. Can you please explain things properly." I urged her.

  "Okay I'm talking about Becky and her new lover" Carmen replied. I didn't believe her, thinking it's a joke.

  "Wait! You didn't know?" She asked seeing how oblivious I am.