Guarded heart a sapphic.., p.9
Guarded Heart: A Sapphic Mafia Romance,
p.9
Soon the doctor returned. "Doctor what did the tests say?" Mr Sarocha asked eagerly.
The doctor walked up to her and talk to her but she still didn't respond. She just stared at him. He put up one of his fingers and asked her to follow his finger with her eyes, which she did.
He asked her to move her hands and legs and she did. She could move every part of your body but she wasn't talking.
"Nothing is wrong with her physically. She has responded to every single command I have given her, which means she understands what I'm saying." The doctor said after exhaling deeply
"But she's still not saying anything. Doctor what is going on? Doctor please, what's wrong with my daughter" Mr Sarocha asked almost in tears
"I don't know why she's not talking. I'll assume that it's not a physical problem but a psychological problem caused by the gunshot trauma" The doctor responded.
"Is she dumb" Ithought to myself. I can't help but allow a tear drop down my cheek and all this while, she continued staring at me deeply almost without blinking.
"We weren't expecting anything to be wrong with her speech organs. We anticipated that she could have partial amnesia because of the trauma but we didn't expect anything to be wrong with her speech." The doctor said also wondering why she isn't talking
"Partial amnesia?" Freen finally said.
Her voice sent chills allover my body. That voice. How I've missed that voice.
A big grin found it's way to face. She is finally alright. I haven't been able to sleep since she got shot. If anything had happened to her, I don't think I'll be able to live on.
"Does that mean I lost part of my memory?" Freen asked trying to understand the situation.
You could talk this whole time?" Mr Sarocha asked her drawing himself closer to her bed.
"If you could talk, why were you just quiet Freen?" He continued
I moved closer to the bed being all happy about her recovery. But then she said;
"I was a bit shocked and surprised. I don't know what happened that landed me in the hospital but before I could ask you, Miss Lawd ran into the ward and hugged me. And with that, my confusion just grow bigger."
"Miss Lawd"? Did she just call me "Miss Lawd"? She has stopping calling me that. Why is she calling me "Miss Lawd" again?
I hated the coldness in her voice while talking about me but I stayed quiet. I didn't know what made her call me "Miss Lawd" but I could hear the hatred in her voice while talking about me.
And the way she looked at me, it's just like when we still hated each other.
"Why are you surprised that I came to visit you in the hospital? It's the right thing for me to do. I mean it's my fault that you got shot and Freen I'm really sorry about that."I finally found my voice and said
"Shot? What do you mean by I got shot? What are you talking about?" Freen asked getting more unease.
"Freen? Don't you remember what happened that brought you to the hospital?" Mr Sarocha asked
"Not really, hence my confusion. I don't know what happened or how I ended up in the hospital.
Last thing I remember, I was at the Cafe having coffee and you called my cell (pointing to her father) and the next thing I know, I'm waking up in a hospital bed.
And she's also here. (Referring to me) seriously, what did you do that led to me getting shot. You only cause trouble and I've done my best to stayed away from you and now I'm in the hospital because of you?
Miss Lawd? please can you just leave me alone. Stay out of my life. I don't want anything to do with you."She yelled.
Those word pierced deeper than a sword, right into my heart. What just happened. Did she forget all about me? Did she forget all about US and the love we shared?
I stood still as tears rolled down. "Freen I'm really sorry. I know it's all my fault. I knew what my father was capable of and I couldn't protected you. I'm really sorry Freen" I said holding her hands but she swiftly withdrew her hands from me.
"What is wrong with you? When di...."
"Freen? You said the last thing you remember is being in a Cafe. Can you remember the day or month?The doctor asked not letting Freen complete what she wanted to say.
"Yeah it's a Tuesday? I was in the Cafe with Shayla. She would be traveling in two days time so we wanted to spend the day together.
It's July. I think it's July 5th or 6th." Freen explained.
"Freen? Shayla travelled last year. July 6th, that was the day I called you to come get Becky be..cause of...."
"...The chaos in my home." Isaid completing Mr Sarocha's statement.
"That's the day she took me to the cabin. The first time it was just the both of us. With none of us having any authority over the other.
That's last year. Seven months ago." I said as Freen stared with her mouth open in surprised.
July 6th, I can't possibly forget that date. The day that led to all our lovely moments together. But Freen has forgotten all about those moments.
She only remember my unruly and arrogant side. Everything I did to make Freen see me as a nice person has just been washing away.
She only remembers that she hates me more than anything else on earth. She hates me. Freen has gone back to hating me.
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BECKY'S POV
"Doctor how is this possible? She just erased me from her life?" I asked
How could she just forget about US. She totally erased our relationship from her mind. Did she hate me that much?
I mean, is it even possible to erase a part of your life just because you hate it?
How will I convinced her that we love each other? She'll never believe me. If I also lost my memory of these past seven months, I'll never believe that I grew to love Freen.
I know how much we hated each other. We were archenemies and just when we're finally happy together, she forgets all about the good times and only remembers just the bad times?
"Doctor please answer me. How can she forget about me?
I know people get amnesia but the only part of her life that she doesn't remember is the part that concerns me. How is that possible?
How can she even intentionally just decided to erase someone from her life. That's not possible, is it?" I asked trying so much to control my tears.
Freen scoffs and said: "I didn't forget about you Miss Lawd. If I did, I won't feel this anger and hatred for you being in my hospital ward"
I cant bear this. those hateful words coming out of Freen's mouth were killing me and that look of hatred in her eyes too.
seven months ago, it would have meant nothing to me. But right now, I'd prefer the walls of the hospital fall on me than hear Freen say those words to me.
I didn't say anything to reply Freen. Whatever I say will just make her more disgusted by me or probably even ask me to leave, which I know she's wishing for.
I turned to the doctor waiting for his answer to my question.
"She didn't do it intentionally." The doctor replied
"Miss Lawd? the human brain works differently from the heart.
When she came face to face with death, her brain replayed everything that led to the gunshot and her brain just shut it all out.
She didn't do it herself. It was the fear, the trauma. She was scared that she'll die and so her brain decided to shut down every single thing that led to the gunshot.
Normally, it would be just that day of the incident but her brain calculated far. Instead of forgetting the incident, she forgets the person that caused the incident. And that's you.
Although she already know you before 6th July, I'm guessing July 6th was the day she came in contact with the real YOU And so she shut everything down from that day.
But believe me Miss Lawd, Miss Sarocha didn't do it intentionally. Our brains sometimes thinks for us. It makes us take actions before our heart reacts and other times, it's the other way round." The doctor explained
"Is there a cure? Could she regain her memories?" Mr Sarocha asked
"Yes. There's a 40% chance of recovery. It is possible that something or someone could jolt back her memories but medically, there's no treatment for it.
You could tell her everything that happened within these seven months. But it would mostly just seem like a story to her.
But with strong will power, there's a possibility of recovery. Although it's more likely that she won't remember these past few months."
Hearing these words from the doctor made me sad and happy at the same time.
It's my fault that she got shot and I couldn't do anything to prevent it. If she doesn't remember US, I could keep my distance and protect her.
I'm not yet strong enough to go against my father. I know that Freen is still alive because he didn't want her dead.
He could have commanded for Freen to be shot in the chest or head but he aimed at a less critical part of her body.
The only way to protect Freen is to keep my distance. I know that she'll come to know all about our relationship but like the doctor said, it would just be a story to her.
If I stay away from her, I'll be protecting her so I guess the memory loss came as a blessing in disguise.
I know that it will be hard but I'll stay away from Freen, since that's the only way to protect her from my father and any other person that would want to hurt her to get to me.
I was really sad. It's the hardest thing that I have had to do in my life but it had to be done. "I'm glad that you're alright now. I have become a better person these past months, all thanks to you.
I'll miss you but I think this is for the best. Thanks you FREEN SAROCHA for being an incredible friend to me, these past months and I'm really sorry for the pain it caused you" after saying this, I turned around and left.
And although she didn't say anything, for a split second her stare changed from that of hatred to that of pity which is how it all started back in the cabin.
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FREEN'S POV
"Seriously?" I said bursting into laughter when my father told me that Becky and I were actually dating and that is why I got shot.
"Wait! wait!! Wait!!! let me get this straight. Did she blackmail me? Or did she blackmail you?
What would make me date that beast of burden. Was I stupid or under some kind of spell? Because I know that I will never ever date BECKY LAWD." I said still laughing
To be honest, I found it funny if not anything else. Why will I, in my right senses date Becky? She's the devil in human form.
So arrogant, rude, selfish, entitled... Seriously, words cannot describe how much I hate her. And yet we became a couple?
Someone must have messed with my brain real bad but now that I'm back to my senses, nothing of that sort would ever happen again.
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After getting discharged from the hospital, I stayed at home for few weeks recovering before finally returning to Wellington Gold University.
Almost everything for this past seven months seemed unbelievable and unrealistic to me and that includes Wellington Gold University.
I mean Seriously? "WELLINGTON" I can't believe I'm a student of Wellington Gold.
But if I really dated Becky then it's possible that I also got into Wellington Gold University.
Cause dating Becky is the impossible but it happened.
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When I finally returned to campus. I checked into my dorm which I was told that I never used since I spent all my time with Becky.
But now, I have to stay as far away as possible from that manipulative bitch.
I went to my room and truly, my roommate was comfortable using the entire room as her own.
She was shocked to see me. "You're here" she said as she quickly removed her stuffs from my side of the room.
"Hi, I'm Carmen, I'm sorry about the mess. I didn't think you'd come here. Not that I'm complaining but you never stepped foot in this dormitory before. So I was just surprised.
And also, there are so many rumours about you."
She got me at "rumours" What can I say, I want to know everything about ME these past seven months.
"Really? What kind of rumours?" I asked
"That you died and wouldn't be coming back to Wellington."
"Wow!! They must really hate me if they've started spreading such rumours without confirming If I'm really dead first. I was never bad to anyone was I?"
"No. Of course not. You were nice to everyone and because of you, Miss Becky Lawd was also nice to us.
I guess you made her a better person. But you're here now. Does that mean the both of you are no longer together?" Carmen asked curiously.
She wanted me to spill some gossip and so I just ignored her question.
I didn't know that my relationship with Becky would be public even in Wellington.
Was she not ashamed going out with a lowlife because I know I would have been so ashamed to be seen around a heartless bitch like Becky.
Carmen kept on asking questions but I didn't pay much attention to her. I settled in and got a goodnight sleep.
The next day, I got ready to attend classes. The moment I stepped out of my dorm room, I got lots of stares and murmurs.
Really? Is this how I'm going to scale through Wellington?
I know I've spent a semester here already but I don't remember it. So it's like my first day and all I'm getting are stares and murmurs.
Even in the classes and cafeteria, it was the same. And as soon as classes were over, I rushed back to my dorm to be done with the stares.
Becky hadn't resume yet. But no one dared to ask me any questions except my roommate of course. Whom I think was being paid to ask me those questions.
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After two weeks of my resumption, Becky finally resumed. The news of her resumption spread like wildfire. It shaked the very foundation of Wellington Gold.
I know that Becky is a strong figure in society, but I just didn't know how much young people looked up to her and feared her. No wonder they couldn't come close to me or ask questions about the gunshot or Becky.
After Becky's resumption, we did talk to each other or even see each other even though we were in the same campus. It became clear to everyone that we were longer a couple.
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THE WELLINGTON GOLD ROYALS don't use same cafeteria as the rest of us. And if a royal is walking by, we need to clear the path.
So I never got to bump into Becky. But to my surprise, Becky came to our cafeteria with her friends.
Everywhere went grave silent as they walked in. She stood at the door and looked around the cafeteria until her eyes came in contact with me, then she let out an evil smirk and walked towards me.
My heart kept beating fast as she majestically walked towards me like she owned the world.
One of the students that came with her quickly drew a seat next to me and she sat down and so did two other friends of hers.
The other four students stood behind them. I'm guessing those students were their errand boys.
"LINE UP" I heard one of the boys scream as Becky raised her hand giving him a signal. All the while, she was looking at me.
All the students in the cafeteria stood up and queued in a single file around us and watched.
"Hi Freen. I've been around for awhile now and you haven't come to visit. That's really rude, don't you think?
I mean, you only got into Wellington Gold because of me and so you should show more appreciation." Becky said as she placed both of her legs on my lap, crossing them.
Well of course, Yes!! This is the becky I know. The arrogant, devilish and proud Becky that I've known all these years.
I can't believe I dated this person. No seriously I don't think I dated her. I was probably hypnotized or blackmailed.
"I'm sorry Miss Lawd. It won't happen again. I promise to come see you and thank you for your kindness." I said going down on my knees.
"Miss Lawd, I'm really grateful for you kind thoughts towards me. Thank you so much for giving me this great opportunity to study here and I'm also really sorry for my incompetence, please forgive me"
"Such a lowlife. Anyway, beggars will remain beggars" she said as one of her errand boys poured my food allover my body.
I knelt down there, covered in my own food as everyone stood there watching. I stood strong not to cry or react in anger. This is an embarrassment to the utmost and I didn't even do anything to offend her.
But it's not a surprise cause she has always been this way and I hate her for it.
After she left, other students just stared at me, some laughing while others took pictures as I ran to the restroom to clean myself up.
But cleaning up in the restroom was no good, so I just went home. Still being so puzzled that I ever dated Becky. Seriously how did it happened?
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FREEN'S POV
I stayed up all night wondering how, why, when and seriously, what I saw in Becky to have dated her.
How did I manage to date someone as ruthless as Becky? No seriously. She treated me worse than any other student in Wellington Gold.
She embarrassed me in front of the entire School. Not even minding the fact that I was still recovering from the trauma and physical pain of being shot. And by the way, I got shot because of her.
I really don't understand. Honestly, what would make me date Becky is a mystery.
The doctor asked me not to think too hard but I seriously want to remember these past seven months because that's the only way I'd remember the threat, or blackmailed or whatever she had on me that made me date her.
I stayed up all night crying my eyes out from the embarrassment I felt and how no one not even the staff members did anything about me been maltreated.
