"Know what? what are you talking about? Becky and her new lover. What lover?" I asked still not catching the drill.

  "I'm talking about Becky, Freen. It's all over social media. This morning, Pictures of Becky and her new lover Lamon, have surfaced on Becky's Insta page.

  I thought you knew about it. Wait what did you and Becky talk about last night then?" She sked but I still wasn't ready to believe what I just heard.

  I hurriedly brought out my phone and went to Becky's Instagram page and confirmed my worse fear.

  Pictures of Lamon and Becky flooded her Instagram page and they confirmed their relationship status with a video announcing that they are officially a couple.

  They even kissed in the video and made playful gestures to further solidify their claims.

  I stood there speechless. I didn't know what to do. Did last night really happen or did I imagine the whole thing?

  Didn't she come to my dorm room? Didn't we have sex? She promise me that it would be US against the world?

  I almost shed tears while standing there. I put myself together and ran home before anyone else saw me in that condition.

  When I arrived home, I rushed to my bed and laid down with my faced buried in my pillow and unconsciously, tears started pouring out my eyes.

  I spent the rest of the day crying. How pathetic of me, crying over Becky Lawd.

  Why did I fall for her? If only I continued hating her, I won't be this hurt.

  I cried my eyes out wishing never to have fallen for her but knowing fully well that I'll do it all over again just to be with her.

  *****************************

  After a night of sorrow and sadness, I walked to school the next day and saw the couple of the century, with everyone showering them with praises. I couldn't help but feel jealous.

  I immediately sneaked away from there. Thank God no one saw me. It would have been a disaster.

  I tried avoiding Becky, maybe for all of eternity but unfortunately, my eternity ended that same afternoon.

  On my way off campus, Becky and I crossed paths. I was exiting the main hall while she was entering the hall.

  I tried avoiding eye contact with her but couldn't help seeing her new lover standing right there beside her holding hands.

  I was so angry, jealous and sad at the same time. I hated myself for wishing I was the one standing there, next to her.

  I hate Lamon for taking my girl away from me and I also hate Becky for hurting me.

  I hate her so much but I also wanted her so bad. And I hate myself for it.

  Infact, I hate everything and everyone. Why will the universe allow something like this to happen to me? And everyone's just watching everything unfold.

  ,

  I stood still waiting for Becky to move first. But she was also just staring at me without saying a word while Lamon held her hand.

  There was so much tension in the atmosphere that everyone just kept staring at Becky and I, expecting one of us to do something.

  I pack up a lot of courage and walked passed them. Now out on the field, I sprinted to leave the school premises but a familiar voice called out to me.

  "Freen wait up" Becky yelled, sprinting towards me.

  She is followed by a crowd of students who just want to watch the show unfold and gossip later.

  "Hi.. Freen.." she said trying to catch her breath after catching up to me.

  "It's been awhile. How have you been?" She asked with no response from me.

  "You know Lamon right? Of course you do. I just want you to hear it from me first.

  Lamon and I are a couple now. So..." Becky said with a big grin on her face trying to please the crowd of students.

  She already knows that I know about her new relationship status but she's still rubbing it on my face just to please the crowd around us.

  My anger doubled and I walked out of there without responding to her. I clearly displayed my anger, disappointment and disapproval of Becky and Lamon

  Everyone took it as me being jealous because I wanted Becky back but she has already moved on to be with someone else.

  Rumours start spreading about me being obsessed with Becky and trying to have her all to myself forever even when she no longer loves me and wants to be with someone else.

  The rumours and hateful comments were so much and so I decided to stay at home for the remaining days of the week.

  I laid in bed all day try to understand myself. I can't believe that I really fell for her after knowing how selfish she is.

  Even when I lost all memory about us, and had a second chance to start allover again, I still fell for ber allover again.

  *****************************

  On Monday, I decided to return to school. Maybe by now the rumours and hateful comments must have died down, but I was wrong because now there was a new rumour about Becky's infidelity.

  Picture spread all over social media of Becky and I kissing at a diner.

  Of course it isn't true. I didn't see the picture but I know it isn't true because obviously if becky and I went to some diner and kissed during the weekend, I'd know.

  I ignored everyone's hateful comment and went on to class. During class and period between classes, I keep getting hate messages.

  They called me all sort of names. Accusing me of having an affair with Becky even though she's now with Lamon.

  It's offensive because I'm been blamed for the affair while Becky to totally ignored. They make it sound like I force a helpless Becky to kissing me.

  I've had enough and I stormed out of campus. In my rage, I bumped into Becky.

  Speak of the devil. Seeing how calm she is about everything and not correcting others just got on my last nerve.

  "You're not saying anything. You know that the rumours ain't true but you'll just keep quiet?

  Why are you doing this? Haven't you hurt me enough?" I tried my utmost best not to cry but everything was just piling up.

  Before Becky could speak, I dragged one of the students' mobile phone and held it up, showing the picture to everyone.

  "This never happened. Becky and I haven't seen each other since she started dating Lamon so THIS NEVER HAPPENED!" I screamed in anger

  I took a look at the picture for the first time and remembered that it was an old picture of Becky and I. And Lamon was actually there with us and he took the picture.

  Remembering this, I told everyone and asked Lamon to confirm it. Which he did but Becky was just quietly staring at me.

  When I was done screaming my lungs out, I ran away from there.

  I got to a nearby park and sat down on a bench trying to recollect my thoughts.

  When my brain finally started working again, it then dawned on me that I remembered how and when that picture was taken.

  But it happened before I lost my Memory. If I can't even remember being a student of Wellington Gold or being in a relationship with Becky, how did I remember that picture?

 

 

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