“Take a seat, eat the meal…” He indicates towards the chair. “It’ll go cold if we don’t.”

  I sit across the table from him and smile. Through the candle light, Alex is even sexier than normal. He stirs up all those emotions inside of me, he makes me feel alive and on fire. He makes me forget every single part of my past, including the devastation that Bobby caused me. All of that is nothing compared to what I have today. I’m so glad I don’t have him anymore, or I wouldn’t haven’t this.

  “This steak is absolutely divine,” I croon as the forkful slides down my throat. “You’re such a good cook. When did you learn to cook so well? I thought your home had a chef!”

  Alex leans over the table and pinches my arm in a playful manner. “You always tease me about being a rich kid as if you’re from poverty. Yes, we had a chef, but I’ve always been more independent. I had to learn anyway before I went traveling. I needed to find some way to look after myself.”

  “Do you still miss it?” I ask him while fixing my eyes downwards. It’s always been something that’s worried me. He could go at any given moment if he wants to, and there isn’t anything I can do. I can’t force him to stay when we can’t ever be something real. “Travelling, I mean?”

  “I wouldn’t ever want to go alone,” he replies in a deadly serious voice. “But if you came with me I would be well up for it. There are so many parts of the world I would love to show you.”

  A thick ball of emotion lodges itself in my throat as I realize that’s just one more thing we can’t do until we decide to tell everyone. There’s no way we can both leave the country undetected. But I don’t want to get into that topic of conversation again on such an awesome night. He’s arranged all of this, gone out of his way to make things lovely, I don’t want to throw that back at him.

  “Oh yeah? And where would you like to take me?” I ask instead. “Where was your favorite place?”

  “Ooh, that’s a good question.” He drops his fork and taps his chin thoughtfully. “There’s a lot of Europe I think you’d love. The south of France, Italy, Prague, England although it’s cold.”

  “That all sounds amazing. I would love all of that.” The idea of shaking off life and responsibilities and just travelling the world is awesome. “I haven’t been to many places at all.”

  An image crops up into my mind of us acting carefree in our casual travelling clothes with a backpack on our backs. I love it, it makes me want to grin like crazy. If only we could make it happen. I picture his hand slipped through mine as we walk down a beach with a sun set in the background. I imagine us seeing some of the world’s best sights, all while being completely in love.

  “You haven’t?” Alex continues, probably with the same image in his mind as I have. “Oh you’d love it. I think we should plan a trip somewhere, just me and you.”

  I don’t reply to that, I nod sharply and concentrate on eating for a while. It’s wonderful for all of this to be a fantasy, but it can’t be real. I want it to be real so damn badly. I can’t keep talking about it because it’s upsetting me, I need to change the subject quickly.

  “So how have things at work been? Is everything getting a little bit better now?”

  Alex clams up and shakes his head. “No, it still sucks. I don’t know what I’m going to do about it. I tried to bring it up to Dad the other day but as always he shuts me down rapidly. He doesn’t want to hear it, which is why I need to have something else lined up first. I hate relying on him for money.” He shakes his head angrily. “But I don’t want to talk about that today. Fuck work, okay?”

  I purse my lips together, not wanting to go down that route. My work is okay. Nothing amazing, there isn’t anything particularly wonderful happening, but it isn’t boring me either. It’s just ticking on, going over. At least I have Jessica to work with, she’s fun. I do wish she’d reacted better when I told her about me and Alex in the first place because then I’d be able to share it with her now, but it is what it is. I have to accept things the way that they are. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy when I got into this in the first place. I chose to date Alex knowing it wasn’t going to be straightforward.

  “Yep, sure, no work talk. I’m good with that. I don’t think you’re supposed to discuss work on a date anyway.” I sip my wine with a grin. “Although this is the first proper date I’ve ever had.”

  “You know what, me too. I’ve never been on an actual date with anyone.”

  As Alex leans back in his chair and he looks at me intensely, I can see that there’s lots going on behind his eyes. I want to push him, to ask him for more, but something zips my mouth closed. I want to know, but at the same time I don’t. I keep half expecting him to tell me that we need to split up for the sake of everyone else. One day that will have to come, unless we decide to face the music.

  But that isn’t what he says at all. “I have told you something once upon a time, but I don’t know if you remember it.” I cock my head to one side and listen closely to his words. “It was the same night that you said it to me, but I don’t know if you remember that either because you’d been drinking…”

  “Right…” I don’t know for sure where this is going and it makes me very nervous.

  “Well you said it to me, then I said it to you, but you were almost asleep. I don’t know why we haven’t ever spoken about it since, maybe because of… well, you know, everything else, but now I want to say it again. I want to say it and really mean it.” He breaths deeply, sounding a little panicked which only works me up even more. I think I know deep down what this is about but I have a mental block at the moment. I can’t seem to think. “I love you, Sephy, I love you so much.”

  He stares deeply into my eyes as he says those words which builds the already powerful bond between us, knotting us tightly together. I feel like I’m connected to him on a molecular level, like there isn’t anything that could tear us apart even if it really wanted to.

  “Oh my goodness, Alex, I love you too,” I reply thickly with tears in my eyes. “I’ve loved you for a very long time. I can’t… I know…” The tears begin flowing, I can’t seem to stop them.

  Alex bolts upright and he embraces me tightly. In his hug, with my face pressed against his chest, I feel the happiest that I’ve ever felt. Well, the happiest and the emptiest at the same time because the more connected I get with Alex, the more torn I become. It would be so much better if I wasn’t so deeply in love because I’d be able to walk away without scarring anyone as I do.

  “What are we going to do?” I plead desperately with Alex, addressing something we’ve been avoiding up until this point. “How are we going to make this work?”

  Alex pulls back and he stares at me intensely. “Liza and Marcus will have their baby soon,” he reminds me as if this isn’t something that I’m acutely aware of. “Once the baby is born I think we should just tell everyone. Hopefully by then they will be so involved with the baby that our parents and siblings won’t care.” He pauses thoughtfully for a moment. “But if they do then it’s tough. We’re in love, this is the real deal. I don’t think we should let them tear us apart.”

  “But your father…” We both know it’s not likely to be my mom that protests.

  “Maybe it’s time for me to pull away from him anyway. I rely on him too much for money anyway, it’s time to stand on my own two feet. If he doesn’t like it, then that’ll just push me away quicker.”

  I nod slowly, realizing how huge that is for Alex. I didn’t know he was aware how much he relied on his father to survive. I hoped that by seeing me make it on my own, if not very well, would inspire him and I think it might have. It’s taken a while but we’ve got there eventually.

  “So, we’re going to tell everyone once the baby is born?” I confirm. “Are you sure?”

  “It’s time, isn’t it? We need to make sure everyone knows. If we don’t, then we’ll have to go our separate ways and I don’t think either of us want that.” I shake my head rapidly. “Okay, so we need to work out what we’re going to say. It isn’t going to be an easy conversation to have.”

  I don’t want to get into the nitty gritty right now, we still have some time to sort that out because the baby isn’t due quite yet, so I push myself up and I press my lips against his, sealing the deal forever. It’s going to be scary, probably unpleasant for a while, but together me and Alex can make it work. It’s us against the world, and with him I think I can do anything.

  Right now, I would much rather enjoy it while things are calm and we can just be us.

  12

  Alex

  I feel excited as I think about telling everyone about me and Sephy finally. Of course it won’t be easy, I’m not going into this with my eyes closed, but it’s time. We can’t keep hiding this anymore, it needs to be known by the world. Yes, we might get hated but I don’t care anymore. It needs to be done.

  Sephy pushes herself into a standing position and she presses herself against me. Her hips roll into mine which causes a steely hardness to form in my underwear. Even after all this time together, and it’s almost been a year of sneaking around behind everyone’s backs, but the passion between me and Sephy hasn’t subsided at all. If anything it’s deepened, it’s got more intense and powerful, stronger.

  And now that we’ve finally admitted properly that we love one another it’s even more. It’s everything. I can feel it coursing through me powerfully, consuming me whole. I love the way it feels.

  “Oh, Sephy,” I moan hungrily. I want to devour her, she’s so freaking stunning. “I love you.”

  She slides down my body, running her fingers over my chest and torso on the way down. As she hits the ground with her knees she wraps her hands around my thighs. With a cheeky smile she squeezes, making me shudder with anticipation. I stare down at her beautiful big eyes and her plump pinkish lips, I feel about ready to explode already. The sight of that gorgeous woman being submissive to me, yet controlling me all at once is nearly too much to bear. It’s the sexiest sight I’ve ever seen.

  As Sephy fiddles with my zip to yank my trousers down, she giggles gleefully. “I love you too… God, I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of saying that, it feels so amazing to admit. I love you, Alex.”

  I know what she means, I feel the same way too, there’s a real power in those words, but as she pulls my cock free and she lightly runs her fingers up and down my thick length, I lose the ability to breathe, let alone speak to express my emotions on the subject. She’s literally yanked all the breath from my body completely, leaving me at her mercy. I’m putty in Sephy’s hands, completely hers.

  I pant needily, my mouth filling with saliva as she tugs me playfully. Then she makes that even more intense by pressing her lisp against me, kissing me all the way up and down, also including my scrotum in the attention. Her mouth and tickling breath makes my pulse kick up about ten notches and my thighs to tense up powerfully. She seems to know exactly how to drive me over the edge which is wonderful. With Sephy, I’ve learned that one partner is so much better than hundreds because she knows exactly how to please me, and I do her. We fit together perfectly, it’s as easy as breathing.

  “Oh fuck!” Then Sephy parts her lips and she wraps them around me. The warm heat of her mouth surrounds me as she dives all the way down, taking me in as much as she can. My hands grab onto the top of her head, I massage her hair as she flicks her tongue all over me. “Oh fucking hell, Sephy, I…”

  My whole body shudders, I can feel myself shivering all over, the intensity is just too much for me. She driving me, pushing me closer, sending me over the edge. Sephy’s wonderful lips, her phenomenal tongue, everything about her mouth is just too much to bear. As she looks up at me, giving me a real life porn show, I almost crumble and fall apart. I can barely get any words out. She hums against my cock, giving me a vibrating sensation that’s off the scale. I know if I don’t stop soon I’m in trouble.

  “S… stop,” I gasp, trying to pull her back just for a minute while I get my head in order. “I want to feel you, to be inside you. That feels good, too good, but it’s not enough. I want all of you tonight.”

  She drags her lips off of me, gliding her teeth along me as she goes. It’s a strange pleasure and pain combinations which feels shockingly good. It makes me hungrier for her, even more desperate to devour her. I tuck my hands up her arm pits and pull her up. Once she’s standing I whip her around and press her back against the wall so I can kiss her hard and fast. I press my lips against hers, both of us are panting desperately as if we need to connect our naked skin together. I do feel like if I don’t have her right now I might die. I can’t wait for that delicious feeling of having her wrapped around me, thrusting into her, exploding and loving her with everything I have, which I want to do forever.

  I pick Sephy up and place her butt on the dining table, knocking plates to the ground as I go. She squeals delightfully, excited and thrilled by the obvious display of passion that I’m giving her. I do feel this way with her, like I can’t quite control myself and it’s honestly a sensation I relish greatly.

  I lift Sephy’s dress up to her waist and press my fingers into the white cotton of her panties. I can feel her wet hot slit pulsing there, she’s already gagging for me, which drives me even more insane. I love turning Sephy on, it gives me such a powerful thrill. She has the most absolutely stunning face when the orgasm crashes through her body. It’s an expression that fills me with joy, I want it more.

  “Oh, Sephy,” I moan against her soft supple throat as I touch her all over. “You’re amazing.”

  I tug her panties to one side and moan as I explore her fully, massaging her insides eagerly. I brush against he places that I know she’s most sensitive, I touch her in the way that I know will get her off. I’ve become an expert in Sephy’s body, but still I want to know more. I want to experiment with her, to try new things, to open up our sexuality and to see what we both love. I haven’t ever cared enough about another woman before to even think in that way. Sephy has opened up my mind to everything.

  “Fuck me,” Sephy begs while tugging her pretty dress up over her head. “Please. Take me.”

  She unhooks her own bra, tossing it to the side, revealing those wonderful round stunning breasts of hers. Her nipples have darkened with desire and I can’t resist flicking my finger over the left one and groaning as it hardens even more for me. I feel an intense pull so I lean my head down and run my tongue over her while stripping myself right down. I sheath myself while kissing Sephy all over and then tease her entrance for a few seconds. She’s so wet around me, inviting me, needing all of me.

  I cave, unable to keep teasing her, especially with those adorable little grunts flying out of her mouth. She’s so sweet, so needy, and I want to give her everything. I push into her, thrusting hard and fast. I grip onto the edge of the table so I can get more leverage and we make steamy, sweaty, passionate love. I love the feel of Sephy’s sticky skin, she feels flushed and delicious as she clings tightly to me. She holds onto me as if I’m the only thing connecting her to the planet, which is how I feel about her.

  “Oh my God.” Sephy clenches around as the pleasure gets the better of her. Her nails dig into my skin, almost piercing through the skin of my shoulder blade. Her ragged breaths and desperate moans really shoot right down to my core. “Oh, Alex, that feels so good. You feel so damn amazing.”

  I explode, desire and intense pleasure bursts through me at the same time the orgasm claims Sephy. We shudder and writhe together, the burning hot bliss shattering our bones. The flapping sensation in my stomach is so strong it feels more like giant eagles than little dainty butterflies. My brain shuts down completely, all I can focus on are the waves of pleasure rolling over me again and again. It takes everything from me, zapping me of energy completely, once we’re done I feel like a deflated balloon with nothing but weariness. Sephy is so good she literally drains me of everything I have.

  “That… was awesome,” I pant against her hair, running my fingers down her burning hot skin as I do. “Oh my God, Sephy, what am I going to do with you? You’re honestly too much for me.”

  She chuckles a throaty sound of genuine mirth. “I don’t think that’s true! More the other way around. From what I’ve heard you’re the one who’s been around the block a bit, not me.”

  I roll my eyes, knowing she isn’t really bothered about my past. Like my family’s wealth, it’s just one of those things that she likes to joke about every now and again, to put me in my place. I like it actually, it’s fun. I’m more used to women hanging onto my every word as if I’m saying something profound so the fact that Sephy isn’t always impressed with me is a very welcome change.

  I laugh as I move away and I start pulling my clothes back on. Sephy remains sitting on the table, almost completely naked while she watches me. Her confidence is the sexiest thing about her.

  “You better be careful what you say, miss, or I’ll… tickle you until you scream!”

  She hates being tickled, just as most people do, so she leaps off the table and races towards her bedroom with a high pitched scream. I’m just about to take off to chase off after her when a sound silences and stops us both. Both of our cell phones are ringing at exactly the same moment.

  “Shit,” I muter quietly to Sephy. “Do you think somehow they know about us?”

  The name on my screen is ‘Dad’, which is enough to have me crapping my pants. He wouldn’t ring me for anything that isn’t important, and the fact that someone’s calling Sephy at exactly the same moment isn’t a good sign at all. She shrugs helplessly and answers, so I do the same, except I move into another room before I answer, so whoever it is won’t hear Spehy… just in case no one know.