Not that he figured on joining up with them, not really. He might lead them west to the Blue Ridge, since he was going there anyway, but after that they’d be on their own. Go their separate ways. He’d have done his part and more by then, and it was none of his business what happened to them after that.

  Tina held her peace. Didn’t say a thing. But she thought things, oh yes, she told herself a sermon like Mother used to before she died—of a stroke, back before the world fell apart, thank heaven. It was Mother’s voice in her head. No use getting mad about it. No use letting it eat your stomach out from the inside, give you colitis, make you do crazy things. No use yelling at those sanctimonious snot-faced highway patrolmen with their snappy uniforms and manure-spouting horses and shiny pistols at their belts. No use saying, You aren’t any different than the filth who massacred babies on Pinetop Road. You think you’re better cause you don’t pull the trigger yourselves? That just means that besides being killers, you’re cowards too.

  No use saying any of that.

  But Tina knew that everybody knew what she thought, even if she did hold her tongue. Long ago she discovered that all her bad feelings got written out in big bold letters on her face. Tender feelings not so much. Soft feelings, they were invisible. But let her feel the tiniest scrap of anger, and people would start shying away from her. “Tina’s on the warpath,” they’d say. “Tina’s mad, I hope not at me.” Sometimes she didn’t like being so transparent, but this time she was glad. Because she saw how each one of those patrolmen looked at her while their commander was telling his lies, how each one met her eyes and then looked away, looked at the ground, or even tried to look meaner and tougher, it all came to the same thing. They knew what they were doing.

  And Tina capped it by turning her back on the commander while he was still explaining about how he doesn’t make the ordinances, the city council does—she turned her back and walked away. Walked slow, because folks her size don’t exactly scamper, but walked nonetheless. The little orphaned kids from her Primary, Scotty and Mick and Valerie and Cheri Ann, they turned and followed her at once, and when they went, so did the Cinn kids, Nat and Donna. And then their parents, Pete and Annalee; and then those two black girls from the Bennett Ward, Marie and Rona; and only then, when everybody else was walking west, only then did Brother Deaver give up trying to persuade that apprentice hitler to let them pass.

  Tina felt guilty about that. To walk off and embarrass Brother Deaver like that. His authority was scanty enough as it was, being second counselor in a bishopric that didn’t exist anymore, what with the bishop and the first counselor dead. No need for her to undermine it. But then she’d always had trouble supporting the priesthood. Not in her heart—she was always obedient and supportive. She just kept accidentally doing things that made the men look somewhat indecisive in comparison. Like this time. She hadn’t really figured that anybody would follow her. She just couldn’t stand it anymore herself, and the only way to show her contempt for the highway patrolmen was to turn away while they were talking. To leave while it was still her choice to leave, instead of when they got fed up and leveled their guns at them and frightened the children. It was the right time to leave, and if Brother Deaver didn’t notice that, well, was it Tina’s fault?

  Her legs hurt. No, that was too vague. With every step, her hip joints crackled, her ankles stabbed, her knees weakened, her soles stung, her arches sagged, her back twisted, her shoulders knotted tighter. Why, this is an honest-to-goodness exercise program, she realized, walking the twenty-five miles from the Guilford College Exit to the place we’re going to die. I thought my muscles were in good shape from all that custodial work at the meetinghouse, all the waxing and washing and polishing and chair-moving and table-folding. I had no idea that walking twenty-five miles would make me feel like a mouse that got played with by a half-blind cat.

  Tina stopped dead in the middle of the road.

  Everybody else stopped, too.

  “What’s wrong?” asked Peter.

  “You see something?” asked Rona.

  “I’m tired,” said Tina. “I ache all over, and I’m tired, and I want to rest.”

  “But it’s only three in the afternoon,” said Brother Deaver. “We got three good hours of walking left.”

  “You in some hurry to get to the 421 turnoff?” asked Tina.

  “It might not be what that man said, you know,” said Annalee Cinn. She always had to take the contrary view; Tina didn’t mind, she was used to it.

  Besides, Peter had a way of contradicting her without making her mad—which was, Tina figured, why they got married. The world couldn’t have handled Annalee Davenport unless somebody stood near her all the time to contradict her without making her mad.

  “I thought so, too, honey,” said Peter, “till that cop sent us back. He knows 421 is death to us.”

  “The real number of the Beast,” said Rona. Tina winced. Whoever persuaded Rona to read Revelation ought to be . . .

  “Now you know you didn’t think he might be lying,” said Annalee. “You wanted to have him join us.”

  “Well I can see why he didn’t,” said Tina. “Everybody talks real sorry about what happened, but they all wish the mobbers had finished the job so they didn’t have all these leftover Mormons to worry about.”

  “Don’t call them mobbers,” said Brother Deaver. “That makes them sound like outsiders. That’s just what they want you to think—that nobody from Greensboro—”

  “Don’t talk about them at all,” said Donna Cinn. For an eleven-year-old, she was pretty plainspoken. No sirs and ma’ams from her. But she spoke plain sense.

  “Donna’s right,” said Tina. “And so am I. We might as well rest here by the side of the road. I could use some setting time.”

  “Me too,” said Scotty.

  It was the voice of the youngest child that decided them. So it was they were sitting in the grass of the median strip, under the shade of a tulip tree, when Jamie came back.

  “This isn’t such a big tree,” said Annalee. “Remember when they divided the First Ward into Guilford and Summit?”

  It was a question that didn’t need answering. There used to be so many Saints in Greensboro that the parking lot was completely full every Sunday. Now they could fit in the shade of a single tulip tree.

  “There’s still three hundred families in Bennett Ward,” said Rona.

  Which was true. But it was a sore point to Tina all the same. The black part of town was just fine. Nobody was going to make them leave. Who would’ve thought, back when they formed a whole ward in the black part of town, that six years later it’d be the only congregation left in Greensboro, with most whites dead and all the white survivors gone off on a hopeless journey to Utah, taking along only a handful of blacks like Deaver himself. It was hard to know whether the blacks who stayed behind were the smartest or the most fearful and faithless; not for me to judge, anyway, Tina decided.

  “They’re in Bennett Ward,” said Brother Deaver. “And we’re here.”

  “I know that,” said Rona.

  Everybody knew that. They also knew what it meant. That the black Saints from Bennett Ward were going to stick it out in Greensboro; that out of all of them, only these two girls, for heaven only knew what reason, only Rona Harrison and Marie Speaks had volunteered to journey west. Tina hadn’t decided whether this meant they were faithful or crazy. Or both. Tina well knew it was possible to be both.

  Anyway, it was in the silence after Rona last spoke that they noticed Jamie Teague was standing there again. He’d come up from the south side of the road, and was standing there in plain sight, watching.

  Pete jumped to his feet, and Brother Deaver was mad as hops. “Don’t go sneaking up on folks like that!”

  “Hold your voice down,” said Teague softly.

  Tina didn’t like the way he always spoke so soft. Like a gangster. Like he didn’t have to try to talk loud enough—it was your business to hear him.

  “What did you come back for?” asked Annalee. Sounding hard and suspicious. I hope Teague doesn’t think she really means that.

  “I saw the patrol turn you away,” said Teague.

  “That was an hour ago,” said Brother Deaver. “More.”

  “I also went ahead to see if maybe the mobbers at 421 weren’t too much to fight through.”

  “And?” asked Pete.

  “More than twenty men, and who knows whether their women shoot, too.”

  Tina could hear the others sigh, even though they didn’t voice it; she could hear the breath go out of them like the air hissing out of a pop-top can. Twenty men. That was how many guns they’d have pointing at them. All these days, and we’ll face the guns after all.

  “So what I’m thinking is, do you plan to stay here till one of them wanders up here and finds you? Or what?”

  Nobody had an answer, so nobody said anything.

  “What I’m trying to figure,” said Teague, “is whether you folks want to die, or whether it’s worth the trouble trying to help you get out of this alive?”

  “And what I’m trying to figure is what difference it makes to you,” said Annalee.

  “Shut your mouth, Annalee,” said Tina, gently. “I want to know what you have in mind, Mr. Teague.”

  “Well it isn’t like you’re in a car or anything, right? You don’t have to wait for an exit to get off the freeway.”

  “We do with these carts,” said Pete.

  “Are those carts worth dying for?”

  “All our food’s on there,” said Brother Deaver.

  “They come apart,” said Tina.

  The others looked at her.

  “My husband designed them so you could just take them apart,” she said. “For fording rivers. He figured at least one bridge was bound to be out.”

  “Your husband’s a smart man,” said Teague. But there was a question in his eyes.

  “My husband’s dead,” said Tina. “But we both knew from the first plagues that we’d end up making this trip, and without gasoline, either. I suppose most Mormons have thought some time or other that there’d come a time when they had to make their way to Utah.”

  “Or Jackson County,” said Annalee.

  “Somewhere,” said Tina. “He figured the carts wouldn’t be much good if we couldn’t ford a river with them. Only in this case, I guess we’re fording a freeway.”

  “More like a portage around a rapids,” said Teague.

  “I like that,” said Pete. “These carts are boats, the freeway’s a river, and the overpasses are waterfalls.”

  “A metaphor,” said Brother Deaver. He was smiling. He always got some kind of thrill out of knowing a fancy name for things.

  Just like that, and Teague had got them out of despair and into hoping again. Made them all wonder why nobody had thought of taking apart the carts and just walking into the woods. Maybe it was because they were city people who thought of freeways as things you couldn’t get off of except at places with an arrow and the word EXIT. But Tina thought it was probably because they all expected to die; some of them were maybe even disappointed they weren’t already dead. Or not disappointed, exactly. Ashamed. Living just didn’t have all that much attraction to them. Even the children. They weren’t ready to walk on and greet death with hymns and rejoicing, but they might well have sat there waiting for death to stumble over them. Till Teague came back.

  They moved the carts as far into the underbrush on the north side of the road as they could, then unloaded them and carried all the bundles up to the chain-link fence. Teague carried heavy wire-clippers with him—this wasn’t his first time going through a fence, obviously—and he made them notice how he cut low. “You got to crawl through,” he said, “but then they can’t see the cut from the road, and they’re less likely to follow you.”

  “You think they aim to follow us?” asked Marie, scared.

  “Not the highway patrol,” said Teague. “I don’t think they care. But if the mobbers see a new break in the fence—”

  “We’ll crawl,” said Tina. And if she was willing to crawl through, nobody else could complain about it. But she had merely spoken what the others needed to hear, to get them moving, to keep them safe. The question of whether she herself was actually going to crawl through anything was still very much undecided.

  Once the cart was unloaded, they carefully dismantled the two-by-four frames that bound each pair of bikes together. Teague wouldn’t let them do it, though, till he had looked carefully at every lashpoint. Tina liked him better and better. He wasn’t in such a hurry that he got himself into a mess. He took the time to make sure he could make things work right later on.

  She also noticed that he did none of the unloading and carrying. Instead he watched constantly, looking up and down the freeway and into the woods. One time he ran up the hill, skinnied under the chain-link fence, and climbed a tree fast as a squirrel. He was back down a minute later. “False alarm,” he said.

  “Story of my life,” said Pete.

  “Pete’s a fireman,” said Annalee.

  “Was,” said Brother Deaver.

  “I am a fireman,” said Pete. “Till I die I’m a fireman.” He spoke fiercely.

  Brother Deaver backed off. “I meant no harm.”

  Teague lost his temper for a second. “I don’t give a flying—”

  He didn’t finish, cause right then he caught Tina’s eye and she looked at him just like a misbehaving child in Primary. She had a look that could tame the wildest brat. She used it on bishops and stake presidents too sometimes, and they calmed down even quicker than the kids.

  Brother Deaver felt the need to say the obvious. “I hope you’ll continue to watch your language around the children.”

  Teague never took his gaze from Tina’s eyes. “I know I’ll sure as heck watch my language around her.”

  “Tina Monk,” she said.

  “Sister Monk,” said Brother Deaver.

  “Tell those kids not to make a path up there,” said Teague. “Walk in different places through that open grassy place.”

  The bikes and two-by-fours got through fine. So did everybody except Teague and Tina. And there she stood, looking at that little bitty hole and feeling exactly how thick she was from front to back. How tired she was. How she wasn’t in the mood to shimmy through there with everybody watching. How she wasn’t altogether sure she could do it without help. She imagined Brother Deaver or Pete Cinn grabbing two hands onto her wrists and pulling and pulling and finally collapsing in exhaustion. She shuddered.

  “Well, go on,” she said to Teague. “I’ll come on later.”

  Brother Deaver and Pete Cinn started to argue with her, but Annalee shut them up and made them pull stuff over the crest of the hill.

  “Sister Monk,” said Annalee, “we aren’t going nowhere without you, so you might as well make up your mind and get through there.”

  “The only way I’ll get through is if you cut that fence from top to bottom and I walk through,” she said.

  “Can’t do that,” said Teague. “Might as well put up a flashing neon sign.”

  “Good-bye and God bless you all,” said Tina. She started walking down the hill.

  Teague fell in step right beside her. “Maybe you’re a dumb lady, after all, ma’am, and that’s fine with me. But when I scared those little ones, it was you they went to.”

  “I can’t shimmy under that fence, not uphill,” she said.

  “You’re about wore out, I guess,” said Teague.

  “I’m about a hundred and fifty pounds too heavy, is what.”

  “I’ll push you.”

  “If you lay a hand on me I’ll break it off.”

  He laid his hand on her shoulder. “OK, I’ve touched it. Skin with a lot of fat under it. So what. Get up there and I’ll push you under the fence.”

  She shuddered at the touch of his hand, but she also knew he was right. There were lots of reasons to die, but dying because you couldn’t stand the humiliation of some man pushing his hands into your fat and pushing you up a hill—that wasn’t a good enough reason.

  “If you get a hernia, don’t expect me to knit you a truss,” she said.

  Back at the fence, she made Annalee go up the hill. “You keep everybody on that side. I don’t want anybody watching this.”

  Tina noted with satisfaction that Annalee may be contrary sometimes, but not when it counts. As soon as she was on her way up the slope, Tina sat down with her back toward the fence, then lay down.

  “On your stomach,” said Teague.

  “I plan to dig in with my heels.”

  “And then how do I push you without giving offense, ma’am? Crawl through and grab saplings on the other side.”

  She rolled over. He immediately shoved his hands into her thighs and started pushing. It was a hard shove he had—the boy was strong. And it didn’t feel humiliating. It felt plain irresistible. He was moving her at a good clip without her even helping. And uphill, too.

  “Maybe I’ve been losing weight,” she panted. With all her weight on her lungs, she didn’t have much breath.

  “Shut up, ma’am, and grab onto something.”

  She shut up and grabbed a sapling and pulled. With all her strength, sliding herself forward, feeling him pressing upward on her thighs, feeling the grass tear loose under her breasts and belly, the dirt slide into her clothes, the chain-link pushing down on her back. Her arms had never pulled so hard in her life. She could hardly breathe.

  “You’re through.”

  So she was. Covered with dirt and sweat from neck to knees, but through the fence. She got up onto all fours, then rolled over to a sitting position, feeling, as always, like a rotating planet. She sat there to rest for a moment. While she did, Teague rolled the cut flap of chain-link back down and tied one corner of the bottom in place with a short piece of twine he took out of his pocket.