Before moving downward, I lifted my lips to brush them against hers. “I love how your nipples are so sensitive. Damn, it turns me on so much.”

  I spoke of what I was doing as I did it. “My lips traipse down your abdomen, set on a course for your beckoning pussy. I need to taste you again; to feel the smoothness of your shaved box as I breathe you in.” I was right there, admiring what I was about to go town on. “I need to suck on this clit.” My mouth came down and slurped it in, tugging with just enough pull to cause her to react. Then I fastened my mouth around the lower lips of her labia, invading her pussy with my tongue.

  Amber cried out, digging her hands into my hair and pulling on it. She didn’t know that I got off on the pain associated with rough sex, and I couldn’t tell her. She was still too fragile. This moment was all about her. For the first time in my life I wasn’t being selfish about sex. It was another reason why I knew this woman was something special.

  While my tongue moved in a circular motion around her clit, Amber’s body began to buck. Louder noises were being cried out as she succumbed to an orgasm. Her tantric juices covered my mouth, and I lapped them up, devouring every last drop.

  Once I knew she was recovering, I kissed her inner thighs, wiping my face off as I coasted up her skin. Amber clamped her legs around my ass, lifting me to face her faster than I could move. Our lips brushed and I pulled back to watch her tasting herself as she licked them. “You like that don’t you, beautiful?”

  She bit down on her lip as I came in for another kiss. Her hands began wandering down my back at the exact moment she used her strength to flip us around.

  There she was, straddling me with her natural tits staring back at me. I took one hand and rubbed her swollen pussy again, making sure she was well cared for. “How are you doing up there?”

  She smiled and ran her hands through her hair, letting it all fall down over her breasts, leaving only her nipples exposed. My mouth watered watching the way she was rocking her body over mine. “I’m ready Jax.” I already knew she was. I could feel the wetness against my stomach as she grinded that ass.

  “I need to get protection, baby.”

  Amber scooted off of me so that I was able to locate my wallet. It took two seconds for me to realize that I hadn’t brought one with me. Instead I’d left it in my car, back at the ranch. “FUCK!” I yelled. “Shit, shit shit!”

  Amber got up on her knees, totally distracting me from my freak out for a second. “What’s wrong?”

  “They’re in my car. I didn’t think this would be happening yet. I’m not prepared.”

  She sank down on her ass, looking disappointed. I joined her on the bed, sitting down next to her. “I’m sorry I ruined the moment.”

  “You didn’t.” Amber crawled behind me and kissed the back of my shoulder. Her hands began massaging each side, while she placed tender kisses around my ear lobe. She whispered into my ear. “We don’t have to stop, Jax.”

  I turned to face her and saw the desire in her eyes. “No. I’ve never had sex without protection. Not even with Reese.”

  “I see,” she said as she looked away sadly.

  I should have stood up and got dressed, or climbed under the covers to prevent from being close to her, but I couldn’t budge. There she was; the most stunning woman on the planet, and I was giving her the cold shoulder. She’d made all of this progress to be shut down by a sap like me. “It needs to be perfect, Amber.”

  “I’ve spent practically my whole life running from things I couldn’t change, Jax. I’m tired of playing it safe. For once I want to grasp what’s in front of me and be happy. I was tested last year. I’m clean. You know me. I haven’t slept with a lot of people.”

  “It’s not you I’m worried about.”

  “I get it.”

  She started to move away and I couldn’t bear it. “Oh hell, where are you going?”

  “I’m going to put some clothes on so I’m not torturing you.”

  “You dressing is torture. Get back on this bed with me, please.” I sighed and looked into those baby-blues. “There’s a first time for everything right?”

  She nodded. “I guess.”

  “Do you still want me to make love to you, Amber? I need to hear you say that it’s okay? I’ll do my best to pull out. I’ve never had to do it, so it’s going to be a challenge, especially with you.”

  Amber grinned. “So I’ll be your first?”

  “I know, it’s a shocker.”

  “I admire a man who sticks to his rules.”

  She kissed me eagerly, and I savored the way her lips still tasted like her pussy. “Oh yeah, well this guy is falling apart when he’s with you. Next my man card will disappear.”

  She giggled. “Don’t worry. I like how tough you are. We don’t have to proceed, Jax. We’ve waited this long.”

  I laid her down on the bed on her back and lifted one of her feet, kissing her ankle. “You’re the best thing that’s happened to me in a long ass time. I want you more than I’ve ever wanted another woman, I’ve already told you this. If you want me to make love to you, let’s do it right. I’ll go all-natural, full steam ahead.”

  “If you’re the conductor what am I?” She inquired.

  “You’re my precious train, and I’m here to tune you up before we get started on this all night ride.”

  I took both of her legs and spread them wide, crawling up between them. Amber bit down on her plump lip as she reached up and pinched one of her nipples. I ran my hands up her inner thighs, stopping only when I got close to her pussy. It glistened in the dim light shining through the curtain, beckoning me to give it more attention.

  Her moans emanated as I applied pressure to my rubbing. I played around, spreading her lips and memorizing the space I was about to invade with my engorged cock. With one thumb I rubbed it over her clit, getting an immediate reaction from her. She was still sensitive, telling me I didn’t need to work hard to prepare for what was to come. Two fingers slid inside of her opening, squishing around in the soaked remnants of the orgasm I’d given her earlier. Imagining her tight walls surrounding my dick was making it throb. I yearned to fill her, but knew it was too soon. She needed to be caressed, and admired some more first.

  I brought my lips down and kissed one knee, moving to the next before sliding up further. With her pussy right in my face, I tapped on her clit, while still thrusting my fingers into her channel. Amber’s body arched back when I removed them and sucked them into my mouth, savoring the way she tasted. “God, I can’t get enough. I could eat you right now and cum all over myself while doing it.”

  I kissed her there, right on her tender lower lips. A gentle moan escaped her as I moved my kissing up to her belly button, and then finally in between her breasts. I massaged both of them, traipsing my thumbs over her nipples as they hardened. Then I coursed my chin over one, allowing my stubble to tickle her ever so gently. Amber breathed in a lot of air and held her breath as I continued doing it. “It feels so good. Please don’t stop.”

  I moved to the other side, teasing that nipple with my whiskers. Her fingers dug into my shoulders. I lifted my body up and pressed my lips over hers, sucking up her tongue and biting it with my teeth. When I let go she pulled away and teased me with it, making me reach to touch it again. She met my tongue outside of our mouths and our next kiss was ravenous, giving me a good idea of how hot is was about to get.

  “Are you sure, baby, because I can wait. I really don’t want to, but I will for you.”

  Amber nodded. “I’ve never been so sure, Jax. I want you to fuck me.”

  I sat straight up, shocked she’d used that word. I shook my head. “I can’t. I won’t do that to you.”

  She leaned up on her elbows. “What do you mean? I thought…”

  “I won’t fuck you, not tonight. I promised to make love to you, and I’m going to do my best to make it happen. I’m going at it bareback, and I’m no good at taking my time, but I’ll be damned if I fuck you. You already mean too much to me for it to be like that.”

  She pulled me back down and wrapped her legs around my back. Our hands laced together at the same time we kissed. I closed my eyes and savored it, admiring how perfect this all felt. When I pulled away I stared into her open eyes. “Are you ready?”

  She nodded, knowing she was wet enough that I wouldn’t have to use hands to find the right spot. I moved my body slowly until I felt her welcoming hole, and then it happened. Her warm pussy accepted me. There wasn’t a rubber between us, and nothing could have prepared me for how amazing it would feel. My swollen cock moved at a slow pace, becoming immediately difficult to not prematurely ejaculate. “Holy shit, this feels awesome.”

  “Don’t stop, Jax.”

  “Is it too tight? Does it hurt?”

  “No.” She was probably too wet to be in pain. Her lubricated channel was sucking me in with little force. I was invading her pussy, and she was loving it. If I had it my way I’d do this forever. With her legs holding me close, and our hands intertwined, our connection was inconceivable. This was euphoria.

  I couldn’t stop kissing her. Her lips were like my drug, and I had to have my fix as long as they were close. Being with Amber was like heaven, and I knew that whatever I was feeling was the real deal. Now I was sure she had me by the balls, and I was perfectly fine admitting it.

  Chapter 31

  Amber

  Being with Jax intimately was like sleepwalking through thick fields of beautiful daisies where I felt completely free of pain and misery. I wasn’t drowning in sorrow over Meg, or the fact that my parents had pushed me out of their lives. Seven days was all it had taken me to fall for him. I was taken aback by his precision as he tenderly caressed every inch of my skin. I didn’t just want to be intimate with Jax. It wasn’t only about having someone support me through good and bad. My draw to him was so powerful that I couldn’t ignore it. This wasn’t about being a stripper, and him coming to see me. My boundaries didn’t include Jax, not after all he knew, yet still longed to be close to me. Gratitude wasn’t a strong enough word for what I felt for this man. Whether we were fire and gasoline, a mix of products bound to ignite and burn until there was nothing left, or something perfect after the brutal pain we’d both suffered. I didn’t care the reason he was lying beneath me, promising to make me happy. All that mattered was that I knew he meant it. I could feel his intention with every gentle embrace.

  The only thing that scared me now were the powerful feelings I couldn’t deny. He’d only been inside of me for a few minutes, and I was already getting emotional. His hold on me was constricting, but I didn’t feel suffocated. He was worried about hurting me, when in fact it was the most exhilarating experience to date. I assumed he’d want to switch positions, or get a little freaky. Instead he took his time, moving at a leisurely pace. His actions were deliberate and adorning. His hands never left mine as our bodies rocked together in harmony. Hot tears fell from my eyes, but I refused to let go, not when I knew they were from happiness; something I hadn’t experienced in years.

  Jax slowed his pace every couple minutes, trying his hardest to continue. I know he was nervous about not wearing a rubber, and maybe I should have been more cautious, but my careless decision was out of my desperate need to have all of him. I selfishly wanted what no other woman had ever had before. I wanted all of Jax, for as long as he was willing to be with me. Knowing that left me vulnerable about my future. In a few months time I’d be done with the first part of school. My family expected me to move home and continue medical school. Everything had suddenly become confusing.

  Not to take away from our beautiful love-making, or what the both us considered it to be.

  Jax took our hands and put them at my sides. Our eyes were fixed on one another, making it obvious that he was about to erupt. When sensations overcame every inch of me I knew I wanted to experience this with him. I locked my legs tighter and began rocking him hard, knowing he’d be unable to control himself.

  His face scrunched up at the moment his body tightened beneath me. “Oh shit! Fuck it feels so good.”

  I leaned down and kissed him, releasing our hands to touch both sides of his face. We were still connected, and Jax wasn’t complaining. He was too high on euphoria to think about anything else, and so was I. I’d just made passionate love with this sexy man, who in return had left me satiated beyond belief. His attempts to win me over had succeeded, and now I was ready to do whatever it took to make sure our relationship continued to grow. This night could only be the beginning of something great.

  When he remained silent, I leaned forward and placed gentle kisses around his mouth. His hands came up around the cheeks of my ass, squeezing them. “Are you okay?”

  “I’m fucking perfect, and you’re the reason. Holy fuck, woman. Just give me a couple minutes to recuperate, and we’ll go for round two. I’m not nearly done with you yet tonight.”

  His words gave me butterflies. “It wasn’t too boring?”

  “Hell no.” He kept holding my body over his, even though I could feel his release pouring out of me, as he went limp from exhaustion. “That was spectacular. You’re a witch aren’t you? You put me under a sex spell, and now I’m your slave.”

  I snickered. “Maybe.”

  “Make sure it doesn’t wear off, and if this is all a dream, don’t you dare fucking wake me up. I’m in heaven, and I ain’t leaving.”

  Jax shocked me when he flipped us over, sending me on my back, and him hovering over me. He used one hand to turn me on my stomach. His hands gliding over my ass and up the small of my back. “That feels good.”

  “Oh yeah, well how does this feel?” His lips kissed one of my butt cheeks.

  I gasped. “Weird.”

  “Close your eyes and just relax, baby. I need to make sure every inch of you is taken care of.” Strong hands began massaging me there, and it admittedly felt amazing. Jax was super quiet as he worked on my muscles, moving up to my lower back. I could sense his body over mine, but it was obvious he was keeping his weight from bearing down. He’d make little sounds, reminding me that we were both naked and highly attracted to one another. As Jax moved up I could feel his appendages rubbing against my skin. He massaged my shoulders, while I focused on other areas of him that had just given me so much pleasure. “You have the softest skin I’ve ever touched.”

  I moaned. “Well you have the best hands I’ve ever felt.”

  “I’m getting hard again.” He purposely rubbed himself over my ass.

  “What do you want to do about it?” I teased.

  He came down to speak into my ear. “The list is too long.”

  Butterflies filled my stomach as his intent echoed into my ear. “Mmm, I give you free reign.”

  Jax groaned. “That’s probably going to bite you in the ass.”

  While his hands continued rubbing my shoulders and I tucked my arms closer to my body and smiled. “I’m not opposed to biting, Jax.”

  He stopped moving, so I twisted my body around to be able to look him in the eyes. “I don’t want to hurt you.”

  I leaned forward and took his bottom lip between my teeth, pulling it back. When I released it, I teased it with my tongue, hoping to lick the sting away. “I’m not afraid of you. You’re not Seth.” Saying his name didn’t make me cringe this time, because it was a compliment for Jax. He needed to know that I was comfortable with him, and no one else. “I want whatever you have to offer me.”

  He grumbled. “I’ve died and gone to heaven for sure. This has to be the best fucking wet dream of my life.”

  “If this is just a dream I say we go at it like rabbits.”

  Jax reached down and kissed me lightly. In a matter of seconds it became ravenous, fueled on hunger for something more. He lingered overtop of me, rubbing his hardening cock near my entrance. When he pulled away he looked down. With the tip of his hand he slapped my pussy three times in a row. I jumped, and licked my lips. “You like that?”

  “Don’t stop. Be yourself. Show me what you like.” I was being brave, not knowing anything about Jax’s sexual preferences, but after the compassion it took to be with me the first time, I trusted he wouldn’t put me in harm’s way.

  “Mmm, I’m not stopping; not until you’re properly fucked.”

  Hearing him say that; while slapping his hand over my swollen clit, sent me into a frenzy. I was horny and losing control of myself, captivated by anything this man offered.

  He took my legs and lifted them up, not knowing my flexibility. When he had them almost behind my head I swore he was going to pass out. “Are you okay, Jax?”

  He looked down at my pussy, spread for him. “Why didn’t you tell me you could do this?”

  “I’ve been in dancing since I was five, and gymnastics since seven. There’s a lot of things you don’t know about me.”

  Jax brought his body up close. I watched as he took ahold of his erect shaft and began rubbing it over my wet lower lips. His cum was lubricating the tip as he played. “Fuck me Friday this is so hot.”

  I reached down on either side and spread myself wider, while my legs remained up high. “Is this what you want? Is this what you waited to see?”

  He was moving down lower, teasing my little ass entrance with his tip. I was so wet down there that he’d be able to penetrate me easily. This was unchartered waters for me, and as worried as I was, I knew I was letting him explore every inch of me. I needed to keep him interested, so I wouldn’t have to worry about losing him.

  He circled over it some more, while using his thumb to rub over my clit. It felt so good I kept closing my eyes.

  “Hold your legs up. Don’t let go.”

  He slid inside of my pussy first, with hard thrusts. Our bodies slapped together, and in this position I could feel every inch of him. He leaned forward and kissed me chastely. “Tell me if you want me to stop.”